Thursday, April 30, 2009

): i didn't get it. things are not looking up at all.

freakshow, but He loves me.

walau, i think i was weird as a kid. when every little girl was reading disney storybooks and stuff i was reading....

YA THANKS RIGHT. my childhood book hahaha. omg I AM A FREAK.

anyway i've decided that, i should stop using vulgarities. all i worked for in sec school to be a good christian is going down the drain. 1 month fast from today. praise the Lord. man, how i miss singspiration and chapel.


Crucified, Laid behind a stone
You lived to die, Rejected and alone
Like a rose, Trampled on the ground
You took the fall, And thought of me.
Above all

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it.

:/ really no mood, maybe its not the blogskin colour, hurhur.

i can't even walk to the bus stop without perspiring ): considering my sweat glands were already overactive before the weather was this bad can you imagine what its like for me now ):

ok now im really starting to feel isolated from the world ): i miss my old friends. i miss joyce even though i just saw her yesterday ): its so hard to find time to have heart to heart talks with her anymore cos of her exams and stuff. i miss xinyi, geena, tiffanie, for obvious reasons like we used to be a clique and stuff. i miss sitting next to geena and even though we fight every other day i still miss it all. i miss leaving books under my desk. i miss hiding food under there as well. i miss xinyi ): i miss feeling proud that i've known her for the longest time & that i knew her inside out in secondary school. i miss cher. we're letting it all go again. i dont even know whats going on anymore. i dont know whats going on in anyones life. ):

there's something so oddly calming about this picture.

i want to be like this when i grow old. i want to sit high on a hill under a tree with my big dogs and cry at how beautiful the view is. hopefully i would be able to cry at how beautiful life is. all with not a care in the world... its the dream.

anyway i was on the bus today and i happened to notice the most obvious part of nature we often miss out. treees. (: isn't it amazing how trees grow. i love how it randomly branches out at different parts of the tree. such intricate beauty, all by mother nature. sigh.

anyway you know the chicken and egg theory. i've decided that the chicken must have come first. i mean the egg has to come out of the hen's ass first what. and the chicken must have come from God when he made the earth luh right. SO THERE.

anyway congrats tiff and cher on your acceptance! (:


但生存是规则, 不是你的选择.

damn bad luck.

met geok at payalebar &ate macs before heading to amanda's for mahjong. played w chermin again. hm finished one full round with fucking bad luck hahaha. today really not my day can! maybe cos i had the unlucky seat haha no luh. eh had punggol nasi lemak for dinner, her dad bought for us whoohoo damn good food hahaha. ehh okay then chermin left and joyce came to take some stuff but we ended up playing another full round hahaha wtfzzz. AND MY LUCK WAS STILL DAMN BAD. OMG. worst ever in my history of mahj games. hahaha okay anyway it was like 1plus when we ended and i am grounded for the week HAHAHA. nevermind no money, stay home and chill! fine by me really. yuppppppppppppppppppp went home w geok. wah sian next week needa pay alot of people money hahaha.

wellwellwellwellwell even though i lost money today still cheered me up luh. hahaha cos everyone was so funny&high! (;

Fortune Cookie: Live in a world of your own, but always welcome visitors.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

wow i totally retyped the whole email haha i am so fuckin patient.
omg fucking pissed much i replied wal's email w this fucking long email and after pressing send it just got lost. FUCKING PISSED.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Fortune Cookie: It was all so different before everything changed


tomorrow, maybe even brighter than today,
since i threw my sadness away, only yesterday.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

the colour of happiness is..

definitely not black. hahaha. I REALISED THAT WHEN MY BLOGSKIN IS BLACK EVERYTHING I BLOG ABOUT IS OUT OF ANGST. soooooooooooooooo, the change.

went to vivo with my parents in the afternoon. you know how you can usually see Sentosa from vivo? it poured so heavily that everything was just white when you looked out of the windows of vivo. COOL HUH. i love rain.

okay i have been having these really bad headaches and giddyness recently. oh god what if i have a tumour in my head or something?! :O :O :O :O

&i have this really really cocky side to me. where i feel like i am so much better than some people in every single way. i dont know. i just feel that people shouldn't try to be what they are not. especially if it means being very similar to someone else. you know, you know. im so annoyed by some people that i have to constantly change myself because any trace of being similar to you just irks me.

OHHHH INN'S OUT OF ARMY FOR THE WEEKEND :D hahaha aww i miss all my guy friends.

my sweetypieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

(;

Saturday, April 25, 2009

the game of..

haha i fell asleep at like 10 last night and when i woke up i saw that my stupid restaurant city ratings had dropped to 4.5. i seriously didn't know whether i should have laughed or cried HAHA. highest is 50. anyway i kept waking up luh fuck. i only had like 3days of peaceful sleep.

i can't keep it inside me when im angry man. i will feel tears springing to my eyes if i keep it in too long. YEP so i have to say/do something to get rid of all the anger.

anyway i was just wondering. why and how do we age? how come one day doesnt make a difference but one year does? its so sad to know whats inside of us just slowly dies everyday. no, i dont get why our organs have to age. you know like, why does wear and tear occur inside us when its such a protected area. just put biology aside and think about it. and you know immortals? how come they all grow up to be like 20plus then they start being immortal from there. so stupid right. no wonder immortality doesnt really exist.

i have no respect for people who do not see how blatantly fortunate they are. try to get attention by putting themselves in the worst situation and pretend that the world should take pity on their sick unfulfilled lives.

wow i really need to get back in the game. im losing touch with it. god help me.

who shot that arrow in your throat?
who missed the crimson apple?
it hung heavy on a tree above your head.

Fortune Cookie: Everything is not yet lost.

Friday, April 24, 2009

awww say what? whats that? aww really?
yeah whatever, go fuck yourself, bitch of a bitch.

& you son of a very unfortunate mother. seeing you so lovelorn now? perks me up just a little. i wish your heart would break into more than a million pieces and would scatter so that you would never be able to feel whole again. suck it, bastard.

fuck fuck fuck everyone who has made me or is making me feel like cursing.

Fortune Cookie says: Never forget a friend, especially if he owes you.

awww now no ones ever going to forget me. sweet.

time is spent better thinking than talking.
oh how i love sitting at home feeling lousy about myself.
yea, that's the dream isn't it.

first/last day of work.

so HELLO. my job was a pain in the ass. haha. i wanna quit already man. I DONT CARE IF YOU CALL ME A QUITTER HAHA.

aww its just v tedious luh like seriously. its not only waitressing man its like all rolled into one package. and my manager was like, today is your honeymoon day only. what. if this is only honeymoon period what the hell is a normal day at work man. haha aiya, not cut out for the job luh. fast paced all. i prefer sitting in front of the com typing stuff forever HAHAHAHAH. no, really.

how. ): nevermind at least now i know if i wanna be a waitress must be at those high class hotel restaurants or those high class restaurants who have freaking kitchen staff and cleaning staff. eh. okay actually i dont ever wanna be a waitress again haha. okay when i grow up i must work in an office where i can keep to myself all day and not smile at strangers and pretend that i am so glad to serve them.

aww but the billybombers people are really damn nice to me luh. newcomer all. but i really hate my job -_- awwww i keep whining hahaha. i dont really care if i sound spoilt/pampered, that just goes to show my parents gave me a good life.

OH my dad kinda dropped by to say hi today haha awww so sweet. oh and i told them i didn't eat the dinner provided and stuff then after awhile they asked me if i wanted macs. aww. my parents love me. (:

okay i am going to watch friends. omg i am not sleeping. (;
omg my life is so mundane. my blog is so boring.
BYE.

p.s tiff, get well soon! she's like my lucky charm (;

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

singapore is the sun.

shitshitshit no mood no mood no mood. its so fucking hot outside luh. it's like, 5mins after i turn off my aircon i am still in my room but i will start to perspire already. what the fuck. its 3-fucking-4 degrees c. i think cows die at 34degrees.

what temperature do cows die at anyway? ugh.
tmr tmr tmr tmr tmr. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww no mood.

gag me.

oh fuck, i can't believe liverpool and arsenal tied. highly annoyed.

and overnight my body clock became right again because i am unwillingly falling asleep at 12 and waking at 8am everyday now.

went to jiawen's yesterday before going to amanda's. played the game of life on her com haha her com has everything. and watched the rat-who-can-cook movie. i can't spell it for nuts. then went over to amanda's for mahjong. omg please, the feel of mahj tiles against your fingers is heaven. played with chermin and zhirong. apparently they're both frm sr toooo. but anyway game ended early.

ate dinner with amanda at sing post. talked for pretty long then went home. and knocked out like almost immediately. oh god.

Fortune cookie says: You have the potential urge and ability for accomplishment.

friends drifting people bitching time is ticking.
okay im off to watch Friends. love chandler.

and fuck arsenal luh. ):

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

oh my, i knocked out at 12plus yesterday. which is FREAKING EARLY if you know me. i think i have accumulated sleep debt of about a thousand years now. no matter how much i sleep im still tired. mahj at amanda's later. can't wait, my hands are freaking itching to play.

so from yesterday,

shit all my friends damn pretty.

i shall just go back to my dream world of dramas where everything is and will always be perfect.

Monday, April 20, 2009

chandler bing

went out with tiff today but lazy to connect cam, so tmr. she accompanied me to my job interview (possibly got the job already) and then waited for me while i did my brows. aww thanks girl. we caught 17again after that. not bad i must say. i love matthew perry! he's the adult version of zac efron. and ew, zac is still not appealing. sat at starbucks and chatted for quite some time then headed to cine to see something. then i had to go home alrdy luh i was so tired. aww.

matthew perry is so cute!

'chandler' in Friends. awww he's so funny too. (((((((((((((:

sometimes i like to ask people questions though i already know the answer, just to you know, see if what they have in mind is close to the facts. its pretty fun to laugh at them in your head when they pretend to know when in fact they dont. but i dont do it often luh so no, not everything i ask is a test.

Fortune Cookie says: Youth is a gift of nature, Middle age is a work of art.

im on this i don't feel like doing anything mood again ):

oh right, and p.s my dear sister, hiding your honey stars in the second drawer doesnt mean im not going to find it. but if it means your life to you i wont touch them. -rolls eyes like a hundred million times-

girlfriends

HAHA, seriously when girls stick up for their friends or get into bitchy mode, EPIC.



HAHAHAH HER LAST SENTENCE SIBEI FUNNY CAN. love my bitches.

oh decided not to post up the other one from my sis cos i decided it IS actually pretty obvious HAHAHA.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

happy birthday, gertrude.

aww my cousin's birthday today.

had dinner at holiday inn orchard. was a buffet but before that my sis and i ate like a small pan pizza each and drumlets SO, naturally i wasn't really hungry. but i trieddddd.

eh on friday i burnt myself with the hair curler thingy and now the skin is raw and it looks really gross but i dont know if i shld do anything about it. i HOPE it just grow a scab and drop of or something.

have been watching Friends non stop. at season 3 now. ends at season 10. aww im not looking forward to the very last episode. its seriously the only thing that can make me burst out laughing out of nowhere luh. oh friday was nice too cos jiawen is partially retarded (haha kidding baby) and pea is a giggling machine. she goes like 'hahhahahahahaaahahahah - hahhaaaahahhah'.

Fortune Cookie says: Look around, happiness is trying to catch you.

oh, really?
chilling with tiff baby tomorrow.

fortune cookie

Fortune Cookie says: It is often better not to see an insult than to avenge it.

whoa, deep.

oh boy, i can picture the future already.

"OVERWEIGHT WOMAN DIES IN BED
due to over consumption of coke and maggie mee."

yes that would be me, thank you. [raises hand accordingly]

so anyway cher was being a sweety.
cheryl: "the grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for."
- allan chalmers
cheryl: yay so be happy lum lum hahah



ANYWAY CHER HAHA IM AT THE EPISODE ALREADY.
"smelly cat smelly cat, what do they feed you?
smelly cat smelly cat it's not your fault"
HAHA PHOEBE DAMN CUTE.

wow. ever wondered what the world would be like without yourself, ceteris paribus?
awww cherr you know the answer.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

): people around me are sad.

'i'll be there for you, cos you're there for me too.' ♥

okay i totally regret asking pea to blog tonight i almost died uploading the pictures. so yes, ALOT OF PICTURES YEA. you have permission to leave now.

so last morning i woke at 4am. and i was wondering if i should go back to sleep. but you know, assuming jiawen was able to wake up by 7 then we would be meeting at 8 and pea would kill me if i went back to sleep and woke at 8 itself so LONG STORY SHORT I WENT TO WATCH 'FRIENDS'.

pea got lost haha. LOSER HAHAHA. my directions to my house so clear please! and i don't understand why people keep saying my house is ulu. like hellooo. haha. anyway pea found it HAHA GO PEA. came up and waited for jiawen to come. talked and she curled my hair for me. afterwhich i looked like goldilocks.

jiawen reached. started playing with all my toys followed by she and pea thoroughly messing up my bed and camwhoring.

she kisiao one. she says thats the animal kingdom. then what is she, a rock?!?!










she was super fascinated by the monkey pea gave me 3 yrs ago. awww its so cute :D




oh my god we finally decided to leave the house after one hour.

cabbed to tampines ikea. thank pea for all the cab trips today!
ate lunch. i think pea ate both lunch and dinner. SHE SIAO ONE LEH ate 10meatballs and one poached salmon. jiawen and i shared 15meatballs and one poached salmon. winner right.


we all look damn nice in these shots! thanks thanks, credits to my camera harh hahaha.




after eating we went to look at toys. okay more like rape them and touch them all over.
i really dont know what animal she is hahaha.


bee, dino, green dino!

bee and..bat man?


fruit basket, I CAN'T SEE PEA'S, birthdaycake!




ladybug mirrors. so adorable!

i really dont know who suggested 'eating' it.



HAHA this pic damn epic. while i was O.O staring at it i look up and saw pea's face and i couldn't stop laughing.


mirrors are a girl's bestfriend.



ew jiawen that dress is ew. haha.


boogeyman.




remember to slow down and smell the flowers.

and smell the flowers. (haha she wanted to take out one stalk but they were all bunched together thus the pose haha)

AND smell the flowers.. hahaha.


AWWW my teeeth will never be dirty like that hahaha


hahaha pea, your hide and seek CMI la can see 90% of your body.


pea was like, ' you look like you sell beer' or something hahaha




i like this thing!!

they are lights.


they say the ice cream from the hotdog stall v nice worrrrrrrrrrz.



okay. cabbed to TPJC to pick joyce up.


then we dropped jiawen off at TP.



then we went to plaza sing.


ate at cafe cartel. only joyce ate ah cos we ate alrdy HAHA. AWWWW I MISS MY BABYYYY. haha shit we damn chillax.

oooo pea went to skin her ipod. nice huh!

bought shorts. then we took bus to far east. shopped somemore!



when pea was buying her super nice yellow vintage bag.


aww then baby had to go off for cell so pea and i waited for the train with her till 5.30 then we parted ways at cityhall.

went queensway with pea! finally bought my contacts. walked in circles around that stupid messy mall haha. aww pea cldnt find her rings. went to anchorpoint after that. omg if not for pea i wouldn't have even known that almost all the shops there are outlet shops. that place screams CHEAP. haha. but didnt get anything luh. wah pea bought alot of stuff from all over today.

walked till evening then pea had to go so she dropped me off at the mrt and i took another long ride home, which of course i fell asleep and banged my head several times on the window, looking like an idiot. nevermind. worst thing of it was each time i woke i had to pretend i was rubbing my head in the 'awwwwww oh noooo, did i just bang my head again ):' way but actually i was rubbing my head in the 'nb, longest bus ride EVER' way.. yea you get me.

HOMEEEE. oh god im tired. gnight people!

oh and p.s, fortune cookie says, 'YOU SHALL LIVE LONG AND PROSPER'.
HAHA, I KNOW RIGHT.