i've thought about it and it has been a hell of a long time since i actually sat down and really blogged like the past. i think my previous posts used to have more substance and what not cos they were always filled with my thoughts and blahhhhhhhhhh. im too busy for that now!

okay just a quick update. as you know im currently working and studying and i would just love to see how that turns out. then again, i was never as in love with money as i am now. used to be the kind of girl who would just spend whatever she has without any worries. im proud of myself actually because i never did like too many responsibilities. never wanted to be prefect, student council, head of cca committees or whatever. zero responsibilities, come and go as i like. so i think im growing up hehehe. actually pretty worried that i would not be able to cope with my projects and stuff but i'll take whatever as it comes.

the extra income would be good i guess. i mean i hate teaching tuition because honestly i dont think i could help them much anyway. and with the extra money, joshy wouldn't have such a heavy financial burden. hahaha i bet he yearrrrrns for the day i would stop lazing around at home and get off my ass and do something for myself.

ok secondly, im so into mahjong now that joshy says he wants to call the gambling addiction hotline HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. sigh.

chinese new year was normal. more boring than ever this year but still great i guess to see everyone. hehe bye!

BTW BTW! ok so like on my first day I told pea how pretty the green frame in the shop was and on my second day she gave it to me as my 21st gift! Hahaha AWESOME MUCH? ITS RLY DAMN PRETTY LOOK LOOK !

Haha thanks pea!!!! <3

I hope I fall very ill or die an instant death so I can make my family the happiest people on earth. I'll be the happiest.

Work with pea these 2 days was damn awesome! Hahaha. can't wait for my next weekday schedule:)

i am still in a holiday mood. school seems to have no impact on me yet. maybe cos after tmr i have a break AGAIN till 2nd feb. maybe i'll get serious then hehehe.

i went to do mani and pedi w joshy's mom just now! hahaha very happy ah i wanted to do for damn long hahaha now free one somemore :) hehehe.

okay school again tmr. then long long break. work on thurs and friday though. pretty excited hahaha last time i worked w pea was like end of sec 4 i think.

WHY SO CUTE?

Hate to talk to people who love to move the attention of the topic to themselves. Like, hold up please, we'll get there eventually right. World does not revolve around u man so learn to deal with other peoples problems too instead of just wanting the limelight to themselves. not sure if you guys get what I mean, I know jonnie does.

My feng shui app says that today is a good day which in my opinion IS A FUCKING LIE. fuck this day TTM.

Just watched The Switch (1991). its so beautiful omg.

It's about a man who got killed by these women who hated him cos he's a womanizer. then when he went to some passageway between heaven and hell God gave him a choice of going to heaven but before that he had to go back to earth as a woman and find one girl who didn't hate him. then he/she slept with his/her best friend and got pregnant but if she decided to have the baby she would die. and as a guy he already loved kids so right after she gave birth to her daughter she said 'I think she likes me' then she died and went to heaven. AW?

sucker for such movies man.

I think people who are genuinely in love wouldn't change a thing about their partner if they could. I think that's what true love is; you look at each others flaws and coverups but all you see is perfection. of course there will be times when a certain trait or idiosyncrasy of theirs drives you crazy and you rant about it to your friends. But you would never say 'I wish he wasn't like that'. that's the magic of it. you rant and rant about his mistake but you would never think to say you wish he was something else. because you don't.

Thats what I think love is.

I couldn't ask for more :)

Chain texts

yay!!! pea got me an interview at the place she's working at and I'm gg down tmrrrr ! I SO HOPE I GET IT. haha first I'll be working w pea again which I am mega excited to. and there's no dress code or anything which is like MEGA AWESOME. best job lobang ever hahaha THANKS BITCH!

anyway i sent this chain mail last night cos it said I wld be happy today but for the whole day I didn't feel like I was particularly happy hahaha. I guess im actually pretty happy now, what w the interview and first year all coming up.

Hahaahhahahahha anyway why do friends ask me why i send them chain texts. u dont like then delete la why must ask ah so funny. ya I v bored my bf in army so I hv to send chain mages to kill time can? HAHAHAA kidding. ok I nv slp last night I think I shld now before I hit high and nv come down again.

bye!!

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who’s with you?
joshy

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. what kind of animal?
A MOUSE

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
i try all sorts of sounds on it (cat/dog/mouse) but it just stares at me

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and you are at your dream house.
windows with white curtains, 2 stories max w a cute roof and no attic. plants all around the front, a little path and a cute gate leading up to it. oh, and its green :)

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
well yea, what use is a gate if there are no fences.

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table is covered with?
roast beef, mashed potatoes, salmon teriyaki, pokka green tea!

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
a wine glass

8. What do you do with that cup?
im so lazy i'll probably just leave it where it is haha

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at what body of water?
a very small stream

10. How do you cross that body of water?
just step over it ah HAHAHA

The ANSWERS
1. The person who you are walking in the woods with is the most important to you.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You’d prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your relationships.

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.

everything about my relationships is bad. bummer.

i can't sleep and its driving me NUTS. :( my cough is TERRIBLE. its worse than the last time i had an itchy cough :( yea see, the last time i had to get off the bus cos i was so embarrassed with myself coughing like i had TB. what the fuck causes the itchiness :( imma dig my fingers in and grab it out. kidding.

anyway its my 1st year w joshy this week but he's gonna be in camp so we're celebrating on the weekend instead. mega excited :) we've come a long way man. like the saying goes, time flies when you're having fun i guess.

im hungry so i guess i'll grab something to eat from my kitchen. byeee

NMTB.

you know the feeling where you know something is not right but you just keep doing it and at the end of each day you just burst into tears and wonder why you feel like you've been stabbed over and over again at the same spot? and then you wonder if its better to stop doing whatever it is then you start crying again because you don't want to and can't bear to? and then and then you start laughing cos you can't believe what a mess you are? then you are sobbing and laughing at the same time cos the sadness is overwhelming? you know?

no you dont know.

gee i can't believe i have to head down to school tmr for enrollment AGAIN. super hate traveling to school. UGHHHHHHHHH. hate being broke too. am like super broke now and i need cash like in ONE FREAKING WEEK cos its my first year w joshy and i obviously have something planned. JUST THAT EVERYTHING NEEDS MONEY. unhappy :(

why, good morning.

my holidays will be over next week. sigh. school from monday to saturday. man :( on the bright side, one more year! one more year!

anyway i downloaded this app called brilliant quotes and a few caught my eye --

"Whether you think you can, or you think you can't--you're right" - Henry Ford
i guess it means that if you think you can't do it then chances are you will nv be able to. yup pretty awesome.

omfg! i went to my kitchen to cook myself some good old seafood maggie mee and i kicked over something lightly and before i switched on the lights i was thinking "haha what would i do if that was a cockroach and it crawled over my leg now" and when the lights were on i looked down and saw a flipped cockroach. WHAT THE FUCK! i literally stood there with my jaw dropped and stared at the cockroach and like i dont even know what was running through my mind cos i was SO DISGUSTED. anyway i thought it was dead but apparently ITS NOT SO LIKE FUCK IT I JUST STEPPED ON A LIVING COCKROACH, BARE FOOTED MIND YOU UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGUHGUHGUHGUHGUHGUHGUHGUHGUHUGHUGHU!??!?!?!!?

i am so wearing my slippers from now on. omfg. damn disgusted.