quick entry before i start on my english assignment which is due tomorrow. haha! damn last minute i know!

went back to srjc in the morning to collect my SGC then went school.
went to siglap after school to do mngment group proj. haha felt quite bad cos adrien actually vehemently objected but we still forced him to go haha. okay so it was adrien, serene, peiwen, geok, rom, samantha, fandy and yixiang. did till about 9plus then we went to eat supper. rom intro-ed his gf to us! i forgot her name HAHAHAHA she's real pretty and she's an air stewardess (: hahahaah okay ate supper then rom sent us back to our areas.

hahahaa shit now i gotta rush my eng proj!!! bye!!! :D


follow your heart because deep inside you already know what you want to be. everything else is secondary.

i don't know whether to laugh or cry.

today is such a good day i have no idea where to begin. (:




ANYWAY, BLAST TO THE PAST.
THIS WAS LIKE WHAT. AFTER O LEVELS 3YEARS AGO HAHA. TIFF WAS THE ONE FILMING. we were all so tight then ):

(in case you can't get shit of what we're doing.. hahah we're filiming some kungfu scene and im supposed to be damn flexible and dodge all of joyce's punches which actually isn't very difficult cos she was seriously damn slow last time hahaha)

there's one more vid but then the supermarket person told us halfway that no filming was allowed and it was all kinda embarassing so yea, no HAHA.

how it feels like to be young.

hahaha so much for that.

wah fuck don't know why im feeling so emotional.



try singing to it. its cool.
The Veronicas have really nice songs.

have you ever wondered how cool God is? he created everything so i assumed he created like, the trees, sea, sand and all that. then i was wondering how he chose the colors hahaha. imagine if grass was blue instead of green! how would your fields look like man!! and if sand was red instead of brown! your desert will look damn scary lor. and what if the sky was purple instead of this colour. damn cool right!

anyway there was this radio advertisement on Waterfront Quay at bedok reservoir. some new condo la. then the ad went something like that.
lady: hey! you're moving out? where to!
neighbour: oh to the Waterfront Quay! (then she starts describing it)
lady: wow! i have to go check it out too!

then i started thinking of the different responses the neighbour could have given and all i could think of was
neighbour: what the heck i was just moving out to get away from you ):
im weird like that.

i feel like painting my nails man hahaha. tihnk i'll think of something funky to paint.

rrrrrrrrr.

its friday!!! but i still have school tomorrow. fckanathan. haha. R didn't come to school today. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ahhahahaha. damn it i hope R comes tomorrow. i have no idea why i go to school for man. ughhhh. haha nowadays my blog is just for complaining.

IT'S KILLING ME ):

ohhh internet explorer's layout is working. okay okay first of all
have you all seen the NTUC fairprice advertisement on the buses?

please la if all the workers look like that they no need to worry no business lo. all guys will learn how to cook man. damn unrealistic leh! the girl machiam korean superstar lor! zzzz.

a few weeks back i saw a son lying on a moms shoulder to sleep and i was all 'AWWWWWW'


andddddd my top earhole closed la fuck. i tried poking my earring through and.. there was like alot of blood..

fuck ): maybe i go pierce the other side.

i like how i look in curly hair!



anyway today today! finally met cher!! <3
and the fucking eclipse was in the morning not at night. 8plus in the morning. idiot keith didnt tell me night or day so i assumed night. i was subconsciously awake at 8plus in the morning and i was thinking why the hell is it so dark, maybe its raining or sth. AHHHHHH. and so cher missed it too cos i told her night HAH. not like she would have woken up to see it anyway -_-

met her at bugis at 11plus. actual meeting time was like..10.30.... haha. 10.55 we msg each other and we were both still at home. LOVE YOU HAHA.

went to cut hair at QB cos we are cheapo queens. mine not much diff la but i wanted to scream bloody murder when cher cut off her curls. $%^&$@!?!!?!? im sorry i wasn't in time to save you, curls. hahaha. ate at jacks place after that. set lunch thingy. the ribeye sucked though. ): astons is 435893573 times better and cheaper.


she looks so radiant all. maybe i'll liquid off your eyebags from my bubbles drawing babe. hahahah.


walau her jawline machiam fake one lor. fucking sharp la her face hahaha.

okay geok came then we cabbed to school. cher crashed the lecture hahaha. hehe haha! it was like an awesomezxzxzxz day (:

oh i saw like some black and pink nail design in cleo and i wanted to try.

but my pink nail polish too thick. i shld totally invest in a thin nail brush so i can do manicures, as cher said. haha.


zzzzzz. i dont wanna go to school forever and ever anymore amen. ):

BALLS. SOMETHING WRONG W BLOGGER'S ENTRY LAYOUT. NVM I UPDATE SOME OTHER TIME. IM SO EMO NOW. LOL.

it annoys me when i ask someone 'oi why you so sad' and then they reply with a 'how you know im sad?' this is especially irritating when like they put sad faces on their nicks or something you know what i mean? like am i supposed to tell you i have some special radar that picks up signals of sad people or what. another reply would be 'very sad meh?' like hello, so am i supposed to decide for you if youre sad or not? if youre not just say no if you are just answer my qst of why.

bloody annoying sometimes.

blogshops are God-sent.

omg i should stop doing last minute work ):

sigh ):

okay despite trying to squeeze out something to write about the stupid newspaper article I CAN'T. my attention span can be compared to the memory of the goldfish. i dont even think about much actually, i just sit and stare at my wall and wonder why they paint is uneven then i'll think of the painter.. then my eyes will drift to my fan and i'll just stare at the ridges and wonder why all fans look like that then i'll read my article again then stare off at something in the distance, again.

story of my life.


can't wait to go to school tomorrow :D

i was on the bus just now and this mom was telling her daughter, 'ee garlic bread, you better brush your teeth after you eat ah otherwise tonight you sleep sure explode'

and i was thinking, whaaaat. no wonder as we grow up we all have our own versions of stories. like must sleep before 12am otherwise momok come and catch you, cannot bath in hot water for too long otherwise your skin will start peeling off (my dad used that one on me, totally worked), etc.

next time if i have a child im so determined to tell them the truth behind everything.

'if you keep bathing in hot water for so long mummy wont be able to pay the stupid electricity and water bills then we all have to move out and live on the streets and all your friends are going to laugh at you.'

'if you dont brush your teeth before you sleep next time all your teeth rot before youre 16 then no guy want to kiss you'

'if you dont eat your veges, actually nothing will happen to you la. i grew up just fine.'

'if you dont sleep before 12am you better be doing something useful with your life'

you get my drift.

i can't stop sneezing.
JAY CHOU I LOVE YOU BUT PLEASE STOP THINKING OF ME FOR NOW.


you can be surprised at what your supposedly good friends choose to hide from you.

the worst part of a sore throat/cough for me?
being unable to sing.

since when was it a girls job to ensure that the guy feels loved, cared for, secure, etc? i know its a two way thing but tradition or no tradition, the guy still has to play the bigger part in this. shrug, otherwise your guy is just a soft weak baby i guess. and what is it with guys not trusting girls? i mean i dont know bout all you sluts out there but for my girlfriends im so sure none of them will ever cheat on their bfs cos they are so devoted. so for the bfs who read my blog, you know who you are, get over yourself already please. put your fucking trust issue aside and open your eyes to see whose hurting right in front of you. she's not blind and neither should you be oblivious to her feelings. face it youre not even trying. then whats the point of promising her that you would. fuck empty promises and do something about your pathetic attitude towards your r/s. whats the point in providing her with everything and claim that you love her when you can't do the most basic thing in a r/s and that is to trust. what the fuck is your r/s built on!?


on a lighter note, I DONT KNOW HOW THE FUCK TO START ON MY PROJ.

the proposal.

i want my bf to propose in the middle of a field of my favourite flowers (:


well, i didn't go to school today because i was running a fever with additional sore throat and cough and slight flu. i missed an important lecture ): but i'm better now. the clinic was packed though. there were 23 people before my turn when i first got there. and when i went back i sat there for an hour just waiting for my turn. madness. i guess im going to schoom tomorrow though i have a 2day MC. miss 2 mngment lectures and i can kiss my grades byebye. i can't seem to find business times or financial times anywhere.

okay.

im boring. yes boring, not bored.
you know what else is boring? mngment notes.
and mngment project due next next week and i have no clue where to start.
._.

you know how sad MTVs always flashback and show happy couples holding hands and running down the street or something. its like the only way to show that the couple was happy is to film them running down some street which always has no one else but them. -_- its stupid. like there's no other way to show that they spent alot of time together right.

went to school today. i think i don't like 眯眯眼 already. ): shit. need to find some other motivation to wake up every morning and get my ass to school. what, with the limited selection of motivations. sigh. hah-hah, sadly the motivation can't be just to do well. firstly its not me and secondly, BORING.

haha anyway i just caught harry potter and the secret chamber on channel 5 with my dad. we were making random comments at how stupid the show was. yea, thats the kinda character my future bf has gotta be like. peace, bro.

which is smarter? the housefly or the mosquito? anyway have you ever killed a housefly. i dont even wanna picture it, gross. its so fat confirm alot of juice inside right.

anyway guys, whats with 'saturday' and 'go out'? over the course of my life people keep asking me, 'its the weekends, no plans to go out?' well fuck you, cos im perfectly fine spending it at home with my parents who work so hard and still have to clean the house on weekends. got time on weekends? spend some of it with your parents you bastards.
im not thinking straight. i told myself i would revise my fucking mngment notes tonight but im too tired to do anything. sleep.

back from dinner!
nich picked me up then we drove to marina. he's damn stubborn lar! he refused to listen to me when i say i know the way WHICH IS A FACT instead he rather listen his GPS which takes him round and round and round hahahaha okay fine i will stop complaining hahaha.

waiting for parkin lots

his car damn cool hahaha they know if you've put on your seatbelt or not hahah


action la.


ate at breeks. i am in love with seafood stuff. haha okay im not gonna lie, the outing was a little weird cos it was like very different cliques and stuff. but we loosened up a little from arcade so nvm! (: thanks nich for sending me home !


ohohohohoh! i forgot to put up pictures from baking w cher and her sis last week!


i realised i like to take people like that haha

the road where cheryl and i used to paranoidly run across. k fine i was the paranoid one. afraid my dad would see me hahaha. was only primary 6 and i wasn't allowed to leave the school on my own ok!

the place we ran to the eat sugar donuts hahaha


picked chermaine up from school then went home to bake apple crumble!

the apple fucking hard to skin lor!







tadah! :D



okay we watched the perfect man. then i lazily went up to her room and this was seconds before i fell asleep.

she ignore me ): hahaha.


i have one picture from seeing dilys yst!

yup thats all!

WAH FINALLY CAN UPLOAD PHOTOS.
okay this was way back last week when val and i went out to get our eyebrows done hehe.
we ate astons.


LOL she's so cute.






haha sorry val, TOO CUTE.


a few narcissistic moments. (DILYS HAHAHA.)




THURSDAY (9/7)

went to visit dilys at ngee ann! and freddy and my cousin terry too :D ate their damn salty steak. hahaha. pictures with her! okay then went to school as usual. after that went to tampines.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCEY CUPPYCAKE <3 told her to come over to tampines mall cos i was having 'problems' HAHA ya right. i always have problems. bet she knew but NEVERMIND SHE CAME DOWN AFTER SCHOOL ANYWAY HAHA. met wj after that. ate jacks place, though she was the only one eating. fucking ex leh HAHA. gave her her present and cardzz.

this is it guys, all your shapes you requested. im sorry its like that i cldnt turn it!

put into this.

yup. sorry i was so dead baby. was really super tired after school! okay lovelove!

okay, nich's gonna come soon so i gotta go prepare. blog tonight bye!

:O i was so tired i slept at 9plus all the way till 5plus in the morning. win already. nevermind, at least i woke up to finish my stupid mngtment notes. yar i feel damn insecure when i wasnt done with them. haha, once bitten twice shy. i wld rather die than feel the mix of feelings i had when JC was over.

sigh. i cant believe mprobe is not done with the fucking pay la. there should be a fixed minimum time period for all companies to give out pay....................................................

omggggggggggggg.
ok i was looking through my boxes of precious letters and gifts from my friends cos i was trying to find the awesome spongebob notebook tiff gave me so that i could use it for school. i chanced upon some letters and gifts from my past and i noticed something. oh my golly me.

this is my past.
basketball. joining basketball teams. ending off letters with chinese name. gundam (omfg!).

oh my tentacles. they are damn alike. i wanna kill myself! how can anyone's past be so similar!? but now that im more sensible i don't just feel warm and loved when i read those letters. i feel the heartbreaks i've caused and the inhumane way i treated my past. i should have kept a particular past's letters and gifts. im curious as to what i wrote to you to make you write back such a sweet letter to me. but nope, the moment they returned me everything i threw it away within seconds. omg, i was damn unfeeling last time. maybe this is retribution. this is it, im never gonna have another past.

HAHA REUBEN IS SO ANNOYING.

reuben: eat first then watch la
cherr: yaya ok so where?
reuben: being a lazy ass of course i will say woodlands
cherr: woodlands damn far leh. machiam end of the world
reuben: yea, come over la let me show you what the end of the world looks like

HAHAHAHAAH HE SOUND LIKE A PRINCE RIGHT WTF.

cherr: HAHAHAAH YOU SOUNDED LIKE PRINCE CHARMING FOR A MOMENT THEN your name comes into mind. okkkkkk i go from school
reuben: dude, ching mun doesnt sound very alluring either.

HAHAHAHHA bastard.


ANYWAY, MY HEROOOO.


INFINITY KISSES AND HUGS, MR JAYYYYY ♥

tension is building inside, steadily.

it's only the second day and i am so fucking (sorry i couldn't find a more extreme word) tired already. travelling to school itself is a chore. ITS A CHORE A CHORE A CHORE. ): and i don't understand why i sleep so early and wake up like a normal human being but im still so fucking tired by 12pm. thinking of going to school on saturdays just makes me feel so.. sleep deprived already. but im trying. okay gotta go revise todays notes. seeya.


A little piece of paper with a picture drawn
Floats on down the street till the wind is gone
The memory now is like the picture was then
When the paper's crumpled up it can't be perfect again.
-Linkin Park, Forgotten.

the lyrics are SO good. i used to just listen to the song when i was young cos i was so into linkin park but now when you read between the lines of the lyrics its damn cool.

i actually have nothing much to say about the first day of school.
go check out kevjumba on youtubeeee! he's damn funny hahaha.

HAHA HE'S HILARIOUS. ALL HIS VIDEOS ARE.

HAHAHHA

GUY says (11:55 PM):
*omg
*i wonder when i go ntu
*whether i got a class like that
*damm cool
*party all day
GIRL says (11:57 PM):
*haha ntu so dangerous
*alot of stabbing and slashing incidents
*imagine next time ^ fail one paper then ^ go stab a lecturer
*HAHAHAAH
*kidding
GUY says (11:57 PM):
*HAHAHHA
*^ SO FIT INTO THAT CATEGORY LA
*LOL
*no no
*teacher STAB ^
GIRL says (11:58 PM):
*LOLOLOLOLOLOL
GUY says (11:58 PM):
*cause, teacher explain 5 times, ^ still dun understand
*piss the teacher off
GIRL says (11:58 PM):
*OMG IM GOING TO BLOG THIS HAHAHAHAHA

ok sorry. its just for memory COS THE PPL INVOLVED ARE DAMN HILARIOUS.

puzzled.

sometimes friends think youre not there for them just because you dont seem to be there when they are feeling down. so what? they expect you to read them like a book and ask them if they're okay? im over that man. cos concern is so overrated and unreciprocated. i mean yea, i'd like to be surprised by my friends whom i hope someday will miraculously be able to tell when im not happy but i guess i've stopped being so unrealistic ages ago.

ohoh and when you tell them that you're unhappy about some other friend but its really not a big deal? its those small things like "oh she's kinda ignorant to whats going on around her and how people are feeling" or something like that. and then your confidant starts taking it personally and thinking you go about talking to other people about her. IMMATURE. i can honestly say that in my ENTIRE life i have never ever ONCE thought that people were talking about me to someone else if that person were talking to me about someone else, if you know what i mean.

oh well, enough friends talk. it's not like i've been a 10/10 friend myself.


singapore should have discos. REAL discos not just like one Mambo Night. they should have discos with music like Earth, Wind and Fire's Boogie Wonderland, September or Let's Groove,


HAHA THEY ARE SO CUTE AND AWESOME! wah damn retro lah i like. imagine everyone inside dancing like that, how i wish i was in the past. no slutty people grinding, no drugging (okay maybe that existed way back but wtv!!), no need to dress to impress. it would be pure fun disco dancing, retro lights!! HAHA it'd be damn cute if the guys wore tight jeans and shiny retro tshirts and pretend to comb their slick hair like they look damn cool HAHA damn cute! not that i would attempt to date anyone like that now. HAHAHA.

awww okayyyyy i am done with my daily thoughts. well some of it anyway since i forgot the rest.
oh well, DANCEEEE, BOOGIE WONDERLANDDD~

blogger seems determined to prevent me from uploading pictures for life. okay wtv blogger, go suck it.


anyway went out with val on wednesday. went to get our brows done, ate Astons (oh god thank you for creating beef), then did some minor errands and went home.


went over to cher's today. before that we went grocery shopping cos we were baking apple crumble! she picked me up from my house :D hahaha yes cheryl you are damn hipppzzz. hahah. picked chermaine up from school then went home to bake! we did a pretty good job haha. skinning the apples were a bitch though. ah no pictures. ): anyway it was pretty good, abit sweet but alright ! watched The perfect man then knock out in her room. haha go her house always sleep one. woke up then she drove me home after sending chermaine for dance.


im having gastric but i dont feel like eating. think i'll just continue watching the secret life of the american teenager hahaha. anyway i've FINALLY learnt not to express my concern where it is not appreciated. people around me just make me a colder person with each passing day. shrug. bye!

the dream.

you know i look around me and everyone is so accomplished and doing something useful with their lives. then i take a look at myself, watching the Secret Lives of the American Teenager (which totally gets better as it progresses btw), attempting to do some math (but of course failing), and many other super not important stuff. i dont think there will ever be a day in my life where i can be like cheryl and list out a list of cool things that i've accomplished in a day. i mean the only cool thing i could have listed out when i was working was perhaps the fact that i was able to wake up in time.

i still wish i could be super good at something. you know, like super smart but it doesnt matter if im ugly cos i have my brains as a weapon. or like super hot but super stupid. doesnt matter right at least im not mediocre. oh how bout super rich. period. im actually really embarressed to be going to SIM. however nonchalant i may seem............ what kind of loser goes to SIM after JC -_- gawd, my life is so fucked up. i wanna be 16 again. i mean you take one wrong step and your life and dreams go down the drain.

you know those aunties you see at coffeeshops or like at the supermart....... well no offence meant but i don't wanna be them. i don't wanna marry some mediocre potbelly guy and live the rest of my life doing housework at home because i COULDNT GET A FUCKING DEGREE AND DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE. yea i may be happy but i don't want that. i've always imagined myself as one of those upper class wives who look young even at 60 (SUPER IMPORTANT). with a maid (so important) and perfect beautiful SMART children oh god please give me smart children. i want a modern house with glass and curtains and cars and colourful furniture ( buddhist alters strictly not allowed. not that i have anything against the religion, its just that the red light makes everything look so scary at night). and i dont have to visit the supermarket to buy groceries, well unless i want to i mean its not like i dont wanna be a good wife/mom. and i 'll be wearing my powerful office lady attire every morning and pick up starbucks coffee on the way to work and knock off anytime i want because im so up there in the office that i can do anything i want HAHAHAHAHA the dream. and and and then i'll come home and be greeted by my equally slack but RICH husband and happy bouncy children but not too hyper because i would get highly annoyed at the noise they are making (but i would die if my child is weird and quiet like me). then my maid (who is very happy to be working with us and doesn't abuse my children) whips up a perfect meal of STEAK AND POTATOES and we can all eat together!! and we'll go visit my parents on Saturdays at their place, pay their bills, and let my kids mess up their house HAHA which my maid will take care of luh duh. then my husband will take us all for dinner at some fancy restaurant. and my husband will let my dad drive his super cool high tech car home for the thrill of it haha.


but since my dream not to long ago was to do well in JC (that is, to see my name on the screen) then go to a university and say 'IN YOUR FACE' to my sister and that didn't really WORK OUT... my current dream just seems like a mirage now. oh well.......... yesyesyesyes i can i can i can i can i must i must i must i must for my dream future.

wah cher showed this to me last night. SO HOT OMGOMG. hahahaah.

blogger still cant upload pictures. wtfz..

BLOGGER SPOILT cannot upload pics. hahhahah chey. i spent so much time choosing pics HAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH THANKS DILYSSSS. i'll blog tmr!!

okay, Operation Get-More-Sleep was a ghastly failure.
and wow, i can see the sunrise from my window ! but you gotta be real quick. i ran to get my cam and when i came back 3/4 of it was gone alrdy. wah like it rises at 10cm/second. haha ok im just bullshitting about the measurement but it was pretty awesome !

could this day BE any worse?