hello. how has your week been so far? mine has been absolute piss.

-bf went off to gentings, so did my parents.
-im broke and i lost more in mahj yesterday.
-my room light is bust so when night comes i feel like a caveman with only light from my bedside lamp and my laptops.
-haven't had a sore eye in 15 years BUT someone up there decided now would be the BEST time to give me one.
-my attendance has dropped to a new low HAHAHA don't know if i can sit for exams HAHAHA

so.. there ya have it. one of the worst weeks of my life. although most of it is my own fault hahaha well BYE

:(

yesterday was one of the best days I've had in a long time :) I spent the wholeeee day w baby!

went to farmart at cck. yay! soooo many gerbils there. chinchillas, rabbits, goats, parrots, etc. quite disappointing that there were no horses though. I think there used to be a lot more animals :/ anw. had an awesome BBQ chicken, lala and stingray lunch there! their BBQ chicken wings are to
die for.

after that we drove in to mlysia to eat awesome seafood! it was the most fun I ever had man hahaha. we got lost and all. sigh too long to blog it out but yay! did sth spontaneous and fun. :)

after that we played mahj till the sun came up. So, literally used up the entireeee day :) yay. sometimes I think it's because baby feels guilty that he wont be here for the entire
weekend next week lol

alright. back to studying.

so i survived days of not sleeping and i've completed all my projs! whoots. exams in less than a month. whut? dont know why this semester's timetable is so tight. anw im damn bummed out that i'm having exams before and after my birthday, yet again. its like year after year. pffft. not able to have a proper celebration sucks. no wonder im so immuned to not celebrating, i've had like years of training. still... sigh.

i ran out of gerbil food but luckily thats not a problem since my family members are such... healthy people. i can easily find like, oats and crackers that are not flavoured and stuff.

kinda sad that school is ending though. i will truly miss cabbing to school, cursing at the heavy traffic, running to tap my card on time (well mostly geok does the running but still haha), eating yummy cheap school food, chilling with friends after school, not knowing what the hell is going on because i rarely sit in for class, studying at macs for exams, etc. so, im going to make it a point to go to school for the remaining.. 3 weeks of school hahahaha. i will truly miss school life :(

ok! gotta go prep for school now. ciao.

im mad tired man. been staying up back to back completing projects. and now i found out that i have back to back exams in less than a month. gosh. my poor sleep deprived body. so many things to do before the end of the year :(

a few more hurdles and I'm done. I never wanna touch another textbook in my life. ever.

josh just went to extract his wisdom teeth and I'm getting a big laugh out of it cos one side of his mouth is numb so it kind of just droops to one side hahaha ok I am going to hell for laughing at his pain. damn gross though, I pray that I will never ever have to extract mine :/

incredibly bored. Can't wait to work and earn my keep and do whatever the hell I want. Ughhhhh. I think I very influenced by western culture because I always believe in equality. I mean of cos we've all thought of being taitais and just playing mahj and doing facials and manicures all day. duh, THE dream right. but I'd hate to have to ask for money from my husband everyday. Maybe it's a pride thing plus my many many unpleasant experiences with money lending and borrowing. that's why I truly believe women should earn their own money and not live off their husbands.

sigh. Childhood experiences really do shape you to become who you are and what you believe in.

p.s I love Jessie J's Price Tag but after awhile her lyrics just sound like bullshit to me. nowadays it's ALL about the money man. Nope not materialistic, just realistic.

i think the only reason why i like Adele's Rolling in the deep is because its such a 'in your face' song and not many people have a chance like this to humiliate someone in front of the world. love.

yaaaaaaaay one more day till my agony is over. then i have two other projs to finish. hahahahahhahahaha i love school. i miss the old days where i would study at home and there would still be people on MSN. its so much lonelier nowadays. oh well. anw i just read jiawens blog about eating ants HAHAHAHA I AM SO DISGUSTED WITH YOU BITCH.

i rmb something that one of the entrepreneurs that i interviewed told me. everyone has good and bad things happening to them in life. but how you turn the bad things around and make yourself stronger because of them is what sets you apart from everyone. and it just hit a raw spot and for a moment i was like 'wow'. i mean im sure it has crossed all of your minds to look at the bright side. but no one ever does it. a few people always tell other people to do but never ever succeed are

1) cheer up
2) look on the bright side
3) forget it
4) go sleep, tmr when you wake up things will be better (who ever came up with this line ought to die)

anyway. i live in a world where people constantly look down on me and dont give a shit how i feel. if not for the law i think they wouldnt even care if im alive or dead. i also live in a very selfish world. but i didn't turn out like any of them. i refuse to. you wanna be selfish with me, i will treat you ten times better. when i die, please dont cry. i will come back as a ghost and slap you. i dont treat people nice because i wish they would feel guilty. but i actually feel good when i am nice to people who are selfish to me. i feel good that i am not at their level. as for people who dont give a shit how i feel and think just because i am the smallest fart in the hierarchy, im glad i didnt grow up to be like you. if i had to bow my head to everyone whose older than me i would have no self respect. im glad i don't expect people who are younger than me to bow down to me either. right means right wrong means wrong. you have emotions, others do too. you have opinions, so do i.

my biggest regret if i die is not being able to build the kind of r/s that i want with you. if i had an accident or something really major and big and happy happened to me i wouldn't share it with any of you. because all i would hear are echos of your judgment. i accept the fact that i would never be good enough for you. im so sick of it. im so sick of being trampled on. you caused me to grow up with screwed up emotions. you caused me to doubt everything that i do. my abilities and my achievements. but thank you. because i grew up stronger.

thats all.

troubled troubled :( dont know why every time I start on a project super early I still won't finish it 2 days before submission hahaha. think I have no more stamina. used to be able to go on and on w/o sleep. It's 3 am and I'm damn tired alrdy :( and I woke up at 6pm -_- -_-

my cough is killing me. I am never stepping foot into little India again hahaha. I swear I caught a deadly virus from there last week.

not much to blog about. V unhappy but can't do anything about it hahaha. SUA. bury my head in work. BYEEE.