walau i miss my long hair man. i didnt perm it btw hahahaha. v sad now. gonna take me like maybe 1.5 yrs to grow.

okay this and last week was quite fulfilling. these are the things i did:

-met pea and jwen together after what seemed like eternity. went to fareast to chill and shop. it was pouring that day and jwen and pea were so nice to acc me to take a puff outside even though the rain was just coming at us. jwen even opened an umbrella hahaha aww so sweet y'all. after pea left joshy gave jwen a lift to pasir ris where i bumped into terry my retarded cousin who just booked out of army. happy :) after which i realised i had dropped my key earlier in the day so joshy went back to orchard with me to try and find it. couldn't find it in the end and i was pretty sad aww. end night.

-did full face threading which was mofo pain and to which i had an allergic reaction to the powder they put on your face before they do the actual threading. but my face is as smooth as tofu now. went to serangoon pet mart to look at my tiny little cute animals. didn't buy in the end cos the shop was closing and i didn't want to make an impulse buy.

-went to do eyelash extensions at fareast. im pretty satisfied with it except for the fact that i worry day and night that they would drop out before the minimum 2 weeks period and its only like my 4th day having it. also, its really tough to wash my face. think i'll think twice before putting them again. but ohwell, small price to pay for beauty.

-accompanied jwen to fareast YET AGAIN with jwen cos she wanted to do too. amanda joined shortly after and we walked around fareast, AGAIN till joshy came and it was time to watch alvin and the chipmunks. AMANDA'S CHOICE. i felt so bad i turned and said sorry to joshy halfway through the movie hahaha. joshy and i went to play l4d with JJ after that. anyway, it was a pretty fun day :)

-met joyce for lunch today at aljunied. the chicken rice at GMSS is just oh so good. conned innzheng into coming down to the coffeeshop (just below his house) and we went up to his house shortly after to play with his cutey dog. tiff came after while and we went to joyce's house cos inn had to go out. kinda big change of plans today cos we were originally supposed to head to town. anyway hung at joyce's place like old times and we later decided to play mahj so i called joshy over. played awhile and tiff had to go so geok came over to play. and yup that was kinda it. surprisingly, meeting joyce and tiff after -insert time period longer than eternity- was not as awkward as we all thought it would be. we've changed and stuff but we're still the same when we all hang together i guess.

and thats about it! on a side note, thankyou joshy for taking a whole week to accompany me and for being so nice as to send my friends here and there after meeting up. i don't believe i could find anyone as sweet and as generous as you baby :) <3

anyway a new year is coming, again. i do hope its the end of the world though cos i totally wanna do over my life. just start all over. but we all know thats not gonna happen. 2011 was like the shittiest year ever in my entire life. i've never had this much shit thrown in my face ever. and as emotional as i may be i am so not exaggerating. anyway, resolutions? i'll have to think about those. dear god please be nice to me next yr so that i can be nice to people and santa wont have to give me shit.

love!

i think im a very unaccomplished person. how come i feel like there's nothing to look forward to anymore and time is still slipping away?

take not, want not.

People always say that u shld be w someone who makes you feel better about yourself... I guess they are right cos the other way, you just feel like killing yourself all the time.

I haven't been the best friend, daughter, sister, person. Far from it. I guess it's hard to spread the love when you're buried so deep in your own unhappiness. I even feel unhappy when I'm happy. I pity myself sometimes. When you are unable to feel happiness from the heart I guess you're no different from being dead.

Forgive me Father, for I have sinned.

im bored out of my senses. really. im so bored i feel like crying man. stupid holidays..

The year is finally coming to an end. It has really been a year of trials and tribulations - not to sound cliche or anything. On this night where I've got One Republic's All This Time on repeat, it seems the darkness has covered the world with a blanket of silence; with nothing but the bittersweet taste of reminisce hanging around, toying my mind.


The song just makes you stare into space and think.