Last post for 2012

Hello!

2012 is coming to an end and as usual, it's a time of reflection and resolutions. I'm pretty disappointed that the world didn't end this year - seeing how I haphazardly wasted every minute of it. This year has really flown by so quickly that I haven't been able to make much memories of it, mostly lessons learnt.

1stly: I'm grateful for graduating and finally getting my degree.

Taking a RMIT course has shown me that there are many more retarded people out there and that I stand a chance in society. Facts. It has also taught me that if I pray hard enough, I will pass my exams. HAHAHA I'm kidding. It's true though, that sometimes in life, you can get by with pure luck. But don't try this in your lives, amateurs. I'm also grateful for the awesome company in school. I don't have a truckload of friends but those 2 are all I need.

Lucien; I don't know what we would do if you didn't gather last minute information from all your friends hahaha. And your gazillion Fun Facts every time we study and your willingness to travel all the way to my area to study every single time. Your company has been an awesome addition to school so thank you. For spending my birthday with me and for being one of the nicest and most interesting guys I will ever know. We may or may not cross paths in the future but thanks for being a bro. ♥

Geok; I really don't know what I would do without you. Without you to cab me to school HAHAHA kidding. No not really. hahaha. I will truly miss burning the midnight oil with you though now instead of studying, we just sit around doing nothing. Nothing much has changed and I really hope we stay this way, forever. I hope I succeeded in making you say 'fuck you' at that. Throughout our entire schooling life you have been saying that you are being mean to me to make me a stronger person and despite me saying fuck you to that every time, its worked to a certain extent. You've been there for me in more ways than one. You've helped me through some dark times and you are the only one I can put down my pride with and candidly ask for help. I don't know if I've done enough for you but you have done enough for me and I promise that when I start working I will not every time say 'no money' hahaha and I promise to always make time for you. Don't say 'no need', I know you also lonely boy haha. Aiya, no need to type until we not ever gonna meet again, I will probably be seeing you tonight hahaha. Thanks for being 3-in-1 like instant coffee - a friend, sister and bro. I LOVE YOUZZ. ♥♥


2ndly: I'm grateful to be alive.

I know it's ironic since I wanted the world to end. I had a shock of my life after my outrage of modesty incident and until now I still have a phobia. But I'm glad that it taught me to fear the night and that there really are monsters out there. Oh it also taught me how inefficient the police are hahaha. It has also brought me closer to my family though they probably don't think so. But their concern makes me want to be a better person. I'm thankful for the people who have showed their concern via this incident.

Sister; You ask the most retarded questions and you might as well be the new annoying orange. But you brighten up this family and I will cry when you move out. I'm sorry for being mean to you, I know you care about me and that my judgement is sometimes clouded by my intense distrust at anyone that treats me nicely. Although we've skipped ahead on several steps of sister bonding and its too late to go back now, I am proud to tell people that you are my sister and all the nice things that you do for me. I love you and I'll be there for you any time you need to rant. ♥♥♥♥

Mummy&Daddy; I know I've been a pain in the ass for many years now. I used to think that you guys would be better off without me, thought of running away, dying. All this when I was young and ignorant of course. Thank you for loving me even though I am such a rotten, hot tempered child. Thank you for giving me so much in my life, a wholesome family, an annoying sister, every single thing I have is yours. Your hard work and sweat and blood. Don't worry, in a few months time you both can sit at home and shake leg while Jie and I bring home the bacon. Thank you for putting up with the mess in my room and the smelliness of my very cute gerbils (which also love you by the way). I couldn't ask for a more loving and funny family. ♥♥♥♥

3rdly: I'm grateful for mahjong.

For the longest time now, my hobby has been mahjong. I may be a sore loser at times but I still love the game and the lessons it brings - its not all gambling. It has taught me not to be calculative. I believe mahjong is a judge of a person's character and disposition. I'm not quite there yet but I know people who are. I know people who make the game fun and I know people who kill the game. I'm still learning but I believe that no matter how much you feel like banging the table and throwing the tiles when you are losing, you have to smile and just get on with it. Also, I've learnt that I rather much play the game with people who are not calculative because they really just kill the game for everyone. Especially if they are supposed to be friends. The last lesson is of course, everyone has different rules when they play, just like life. It's all about compromise.

Amanda; You are my number 1 mahjong kaki and I will always have your number on speed dial. (Gonna add Shaun's soon hahaha). I absolutely LOVE playing mahjong with you and Shaun. Everything is so comfortable and no one is calculative. When you sing, I feel like I'm gonna 'Zi mo man'. When you laugh, I feel like I'm gonna 'An gang/yao'. I love how even when luck is not on your side you are still able to laugh and sing songs. You are one of the few players I know that are truly happy to play the game and is not just in it for the money. Which makes our meeting not only about winning money but also to spend time together and get to know each other better. Both you and Shaun have very very good character when it comes to mahjong and I really really wish the best for both of you. And the best for me the next time we play. HAHA KIDDING. ♥

Joyce; You are the last mahjong kaki I will call. Because you are so damn lucky. hahaha. Sometimes I feel like mahjong sessions with you are not about meeting up anymore, but more like financial war. Of course, no one plays mahjong to willingly give away money (unless I become a taitai next time with too much money), but every mahjong session with you, I sweat and sweat. hahahahaha. But 'gian', what to do. You are also one of the few people I know that when losing, still can giggle and giggle. Even though its weird sometimes because we used to be SO close and now we only meet to mahjong, I still wish you all the happiness in the world and hope that in many years to come, we would still meet occasionally for mahjong and high tea. hehe.  ♥

4thly: I'm grateful for love.

I attended my first 'friend' wedding this year and I loved every moment of it. From the bachelorette party to the banquet. I'm happy that Sam Bimbo ♥ found her true love 8 years ago and is now happily married. From 4 years ago in 2010 when I first met Sam until this day, I have never seen her more beautiful and happy than on her wedding day. Love exists. And it taught me that happiness can truly come from the heart despite my lack of ability to feel that kind of happiness. I wish all the couples I know all the happiness in the world, to enjoy each other's company and to forgive and tolerate the little things that annoy you. To hold on to each other and find a way to break through to them. To compromise and listen to what each one has to say. To never stop doing little things to surprise each other.
Mummy&Daddy, Claire&Terence, Amanda&Shaun, Jiawen&Bryan, Joyce&Simon, Sam&Nic, Yixiang&Agnes, Cheryl&Kenneth, Pearlyn&Keith, and of course, Cherryl&Joshua♥.

Joshua; We've been going strong for so long despite all the negativity and like I said before, we beat the odds together. Sometimes I feel like crying when I talk to you because I feel like our frequency is very very different. You also make me want to punch your tummy when you always forget the little things that annoy me. I can't say we were as mad and passionate about our relationship as we were 2 years ago but we are comfortable. And despite seeing you 99% of 2012, I still miss you even when I'm with you and when I'm not. You've taught me that love is about acceptance. Over time, I've accepted that your english sucks and you are possibly never going to slim down (TROLLLOLOL). 2012 has been a trying year for us and I'm glad we made it through endless days of army. I can't say that you are my true love and that I am going to marry you (Yes, I am damn realistic), but I can say that my love is not dying and that I wish to make many many more memories with you. ♥♥♥

Lastly: I am grateful for the things here and there that make up 2012

Other than memorable moments in 2012, there are bound to be events that make it a fruitful year. Much like a leaking pipe, without these events to hold the year together, everything would just fall apart in time. So I'm thankful for every meet up this year.

Jiawen/Sbitch; You have been extremely busy this year and so have I thus we didn't hang out as much and thus I didn't know which event above to slot you under HAHAHA. But I treasure every facial session, every supper session, every whatsapp chat that we have. You are like my longest closest friend I have and you also been the only constant in my life for as long as I can remember. No need for formalities, because you know that I'll be there for you whenever, wherever. And I know that you'll be there too. As we grow closer we no longer feel the need to hide that we are in a bad mood and entertain each other and that's what I love about you - No hard feelings. Everyday is a new day for us. Thank you for putting up with my nonsense and bitchy remarks about people who no longer matter. Thank you for always finding time to meet me, it makes me feel loved. HAHAHA. Aiya, not like I'm never going to talk to you again also. I love you la! ♥♥

Liangyu; I hate you. You are a guy who doesn't keep his word. HAHAHA. I'm thankful that I came to know you through Joshy because you are one of the rare ones that I feel comfortable around. Maybe because we are so alike - both lazy and poor. HAHAHA. I admire your efforts to study and I really think you are not stupid but like to act stupid. Next time when you make it big remember my name and how I cheered you on when you are studying and remember to treat me to bread. I want Croissant, not Gardenia bread k thanks. ♥


Yup, that kinda sums up this year for me. I omitted some events because I am either in denial or that I don't wish to recall unhappy events haha! I made a short list of resolutions to commemorate the mark of a new chapter of my life in 2013. But I'm not going to type them here because everytime I disclose a resolution to the public it doesn't ever work. (Like quitting mahjong) hahaha. I'll pen them down and come back to it next year end!

Loveeeeee♥

Favourite christmas poem

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house
not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care,
in hopes that St. Nicholas soon would be there.


The children were nestled all snug in their beds,
while visions of sugar plums danced in their heads.
And Mama in her 'kerchief, and I in my cap,
had just settled our brains for a long winter's nap.


When out on the roof there arose such a clatter,
I sprang from my bed to see what was the matter.
Away to the window I flew like a flash,
tore open the shutter, and threw up the sash.


The moon on the breast of the new-fallen snow
gave the lustre of midday to objects below,
when, what to my wondering eyes should appear,
but a miniature sleigh and eight tiny reindeer.


With a little old driver, so lively and quick,
I knew in a moment it must be St. Nick.
More rapid than eagles, his coursers they came,
and he whistled and shouted and called them by name:

"Now Dasher! Now Dancer!
Now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On, Cupid!
On, Donner and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch!
To the top of the wall!
Now dash away! Dash away!
Dash away all!"


As dry leaves that before the wild hurricane fly,
when they meet with an obstacle, mount to the sky
so up to the house-top the coursers they flew,
with the sleigh full of toys, and St. Nicholas too.


And then, in a twinkling, I heard on the roof
the prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
As I drew in my head and was turning around,
down the chimney St. Nicholas came with a bound.


He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
and his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot.
A bundle of toys he had flung on his back,
and he looked like a peddler just opening his pack.


His eyes--how they twinkled! His dimples, how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His droll little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
and the beard on his chin was as white as the snow.
The stump of a pipe he held tight in his teeth,
and the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
that shook when he laughed, like a bowl full of jelly.


He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
and I laughed when I saw him, in spite of myself.
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head
soon gave me to know I had nothing to dread.


He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
and filled all the stockings, then turned with a jerk.
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
and giving a nod, up the chimney he rose.


He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a whistle,
And away they all flew like the down of a thistle.
But I heard him exclaim, 'ere he drove out of sight,
'Happy Christmas to all! And to all a good night!'

I feel really blessed to have so many people around me who are happy and awesome. its really good to get out and hang with different people sometimes. a change of environment and mood.

I really wish i could turn back time.

HELLO. so as usual, nothing new in my life hahaha. but omg gossip girl ended! after 6 years leh. can't believe i have been watching a show for 6 years hahaha. anyways gonna be attending a church wedding tmr and then a wedding dinner on friday. and i attended a bachelorette party last week which i left early cos i was so wasted. i only drank 2 shots btw HAHAHAHAHAH thats how bad my liquor tolerance is. contrary to what a lot of people like to think.

IM SO HAPPY. im gonna be seeing a lot of people that i love for the next few days! and christmas is coming! IM SO EXCITED cos of all the food HAHAHA. AND ANOTHER THING THAT IM HAPPY ABOUT IS THAT EVERYONE IS COMING BACK FROM OVERSEASSSSSS. I MISS EVERYONE SO MUCHHHHHHH.

XOXO NO MORE GOSSIP GIRL.

omg i didnt put false lashes for like 6 mths? and now its been 1 hour and i cant put it in perfectly. i used to be able to do it in 5 mins -_-

I really hate that I am not from a rich family. I strongly believe that without money you can't do many things. I wanna adopt this precious little puppy from this guy that i follow on facebook but i am so powerless. i will not have money to buy food, a comfortable bed, etc. i really wish someone will call me from my job applications already. i am dying to start working so that i wont be so powerless anymore.

And the world will never know.

hi hi!

IM DAMN STRESSED. i cant freaking decide what i wanna work as. its like my passion's flying all over the place. one day im all like, 'bitch please, banking is a piece of cake' and then tomorow im like, i fucking hate banking all. IM SO STRESSED. like honestly i didn't even feel this amount of stress for my finals. i swear i am searching damn hard and i am going crazy. ughhghhhaiuwfhonweiuvwevwenvoiewjrfhc02384u3208hgjc.

man, i just blogged a whole post about how i hate dumb people but i think its just the scorpio in me acting up. anyway, it was really mean.

well, when looking for friends, some gravitate towards people who are pretty, popular and wealthy. i like my friends to be witty, smart (both book and street) and geniuses at sarcasm. so if you're still one of my close friends now, congratulations, you are definitely above others when it comes to either of these factors.

yup that about sums it up i guess. minus a whole lot of offensive stuff. hahahahhahahaha k bye.