I don't know if not being affected by my failures is a good or bad thing. :/ It's like I don't really care hahahahahahaha

omg i had the worst experience ever.

1. i decided to finally update my iPhone's iOS to iOS 6. it was a big decision for me because i jailbroke my phone and i love my customizations to bits. but since Installous closed down and i can no longer find a suitable platform to download free applications and my phone is super laggy, i sadly updated my phone.

2. after the update my phone suddenly went crazy. it was stuck on reboot loop. meaning they just kept showing the apple logo then blacking out and the whole process will keep going on and on. the phone will never turn on.

this is when i knew i was in deep shit luh. who knew unjailbreaking your phone would be such a pain in the ass.

3. i tried to remove the iPhone battery and disconnected it from the phone. but after reconnecting and pressing the power button the whole process just continued again. and Apple is damn fucked up by the way, the screws they use are STAR SHAPED. and believe me i don't think any of you have a star shaped screw driver at home.

4. so i tried setting my phone to DFU mode but IT JUST KEPT FLASHING THE APPLE LOGO AT ME AGAIN AND AGAIN. can cry. at this point i was super frustrated already.

5. found this link which saved my ass. [THE LINK] but it probably wont mean a thing to any of you hahahahaha

6. so my phone finally responded to something. and i put it to recovery mode on itunes. bear in mind, i can't back up because my itunes couldn't detect my phone in this state.

7. i think i tried the whole process like 4 times. fucking tedious. and my phone finally got to working.

BUT,

i could only restore it from my last back up date which was 1 August 2012. so i lost half of my pictures and messages. and i feel v sad about it. :/ bang wall and die kind of sad.

:( at least my phone can on and off now -_-

The dark side

Sometimes when I'm angry I punch things then when I calm down, I think of stabbing that person over and over again until the last thing they see would be my knife with their blood and the last thing they feel would be the amount of pain I had to go through because of them.

I think I've gone over to the dark side.

The word 'Irony' is used too often, and often wrong.

I'm so fucking sick of being poor. I know I've made some bad decisions in my life and I totally have the 'Spend all your money today cos you are going to die tomorrow' mindset. BUT THAT'S GONNA CHANGE. I DON'T WANNA BE POOR ANYMORE I AM FUCKING SICK OF IT I CAN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL UGHHHHHHHHH

in the foulest of moods today. i hate confrontations.

All things happen for a reason

why, hello. 

my days have been good. i think i got more than i deserved and sometimes i dont know how to appreciate it. 

i have been plagued with the problems of my friends and i use the word plague because it really seems like it. and suddenly all of us are in this sad vortex with the suction force of quicksand. misery loves company. but as i listen to their problems and track back to how many times they have been whining about the same thing since forever, i realise that without our past mistakes and experiences they would have never learnt and grow from there. 

its common to hear people say these words of comfort 'all things happen for a reason' but we dont actually understand and be grateful for what happened before. like i know of this girl who fell out with all of her bitch girlfriends for this guy because one of them bitches decided to spread the word that she stole him from her. and this friend of mine was sad for a long time. but like the chinese say, if the old ones dont go the new ones wont come. im not saying friends are disposable and as long as better ones come along you kick aside your old friends. but if they turn their backs on you, dont even bother. and this girl is now happily with this other guy and has a ton of other new friends who are not so immature. and i'll bet that if she looks back at her life now she'll be grateful they fell out with her because if they didn't, she wouldn't have learnt the difference between true friends and those who are not. 

without your present you wouldn't have your future. its funny but i feel that i am right where i am supposed to be right now. i dont regret that i didn't go to a better university; i dont regret any of my past relationships; i dont regret spending my money frivolously; i dont regret falling out with any of my enemies. 

i could be a better person and i WILL be, in the future when i learn from other mistakes. its true that you are in control of your destiny and if you study hard and become a millionaire now you earned it. but if you dont and you choose a different path, dont worry. you would have your day in the sun if you choose wisely. there are no wrong choices, only choices that have not been made. and most importantly, dont be a pussy. be ready to face the consequences for whatever choice you make cos lets face it, karma can be and will be a bitch. 

okay im done with my pointless post. HAHA bye now. 

trollolololll. I will never understand why I'm not a people person. I don't believe that you can be anything you wanna be as long as you put your mind to it. No one can totally change their character just because they set their heart on it. Like Lady Gaga said, you were born this way.

hi all :)

thought i'd do a small update. 

i have an important interview tomorrow and if it goes well i will have a job on by wednesday. im pretty excited about it. i mean, i think this is it. and its for a well known MNC. so i guess god is really throwing me a lifeline here. although i will miss chilling at night and doing nothing all day, i'm actually really excited to start working and earn my own keeps. money is kinda the source of all my problems now so i think it'll be quite a relief for me. fingers crossed!

josh finally got an iPhone! it feels weird whatsapping him though. and he's constantly playing some stupid games on his phone. so i guess there's good and bad. 

i think im really lucky to have josh and g in my life. given that i am not an easy person to get along with and even my family hates me, i think those 2 have the tolerance level of a deity. 

my family comes in the form of friends. :)