omfg i think i have Cyclothymic disorder.

我怀念的

sigh nevermind. post deleted.

沈祥龙 - 希望

wah i used to think sylvester (singapore idol runner up) was a chao ah beng hahah ok maybe he still is BUT HIS SONGS V NICE LEH OMG. damn sad please wtf.

我一直以来都守护在你身边
不懂你如何看得见
只好静静靠在一边

你的笑容能让我开心一整天
只要一天没和你见面
我的心情不会好一点

时间已经不多
我还有话很想说
隐藏在我心里不懂如何开口

我们很快就要走
回忆也不算太多
简简单单希望你会懂

不能在一起也没关系
至少你懂我的心 会在想你
那些回忆会永远保持甜蜜

不管未来你会在哪里
我都不会忘记 我爱你
你是我微笑的原因

只是希望你能比从前开心

tears were meant for so much more.

just love me when you can.

thank God for girlfriends.
i love you pea, cher, joyce (: its amazing how they can be so genuinely excited for me when i go out with lb. (: but the only things that made me smile today are probably

pea's retarded batman drawing on my hand haha.


and the stupid bug cher gave me from happy meal haha. DAMN CUTE HAHA.

went to watch the movie with lb. monsters vs aliens, pretty funny. before that went to eat at mr beans cafe. not bad. and thanks jiawen for you know what (:

aiyar, you know how it sucks when the day doesnt go like you expected it to? sucks big time. no mood at all now. actually i also dont know why. not like i shld be expecting anything anymore. but v confused leh. ah fuck it. gonna sleep it off. bye.

so you'll be mine,
forever and almost always ♥

Jesus loves me this i know, for ........ tells me so (;

(12.35am)
wah okay i just took a quiz. DAMN TRUE HAHA. LIKE THE WHOLE THING
Cherryl took the quiz - What Color Is Your Psyche? and the result is Your Psyche is Red
You are bright, bold, energetic, and intense. Your upbeat, zany energy inspires those who are down. Spontaneous and playful, you also have a courageous and fearless side. When you are too red: you are angry, overprotective, and truly scary. When you don't have enough red: you are depleted and lifeless.

//
omg im damn tired ): this morning i was literally lying on my bed thinking how nice it would be if i were dead. can sleep forever and ever. omg yea thats what i want. to sleep forever and ever hahaha. SOMEBODY KILL ME.

anyway work with pea is getting really fun cos she brings Post-Its and we write damn stupid notes to each other hahaha. and i can surf net, and eat anything i want and leave the office anytime i want also. MY JOB DAMN CHILLING HAHA. accompanied pea till her bf came then came home just to head out again to Siglap to meet my cousin and aunt; aunt's birthday. BUT I WAS LATE, WTF IS NEW? so i just met them at their house la haha. nvm all in Siglap anyway. I LOVE MY NIECE she's just SO DAMN CUTE PLEASE. on a random side note i still want gerbils.

ohohoh im having second thoughts about having a desk bound job for life -_- ok think cherr think of what the hell you wanna be when you grow upzzzz. oh i just realised i cant blog what i wanna blog haha. i am so going to slap that person tmr hahahahah.


anyway i am f happy today HAHAHA. BUT CHER NOT ONLINEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. probably sleeping already getting ready to watch stupid man utd play later hahahah. anyway, :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D


haha wtfz, i was checking out the stupid Samsung site and seeing the conditions for repairing phone and there was this one condition where they would not repair your phone: "Damage, losses, defects or malfunction as a result of fire, flood or other Acts of God."
haha acts of God. damn weird leh their language.


why would anyone spell valerie as valarie? doent valarie just look WEIRD. its like, if you learn han yu pin yin it is rightfully valerie not valarie. otherwise it would sound like va-LAH-rie which is just hideous. HAHA OKAY, ONE OPINION HERE, DONT KILL ME IF YOUR NAME IS VALARIE. anyway its just a random thought, not cos i have a friend called val -_-. like how its spelt as separated not seperated. THEY SHOULD JUST MAKE OUR LIVES EASIER AND SPELL IT AS SEPERATED LOR. sounds and looks so much better pls.


okay i am done rambling for tonight. :D:D:D:D:D:D


if you could see me now.

i cant sleep, i have to wake in 6hours and i rly doubt i can be on time tomorrow. pea is going to kill me. ohohohohhohohoh, hehe. something good happened just now :D maybe thats why i cant sleep -_- overly excited much. hahahhahaa okay talking to v online now. wtf, damn funny. okay im going to play stupid games in fb.

WHITE KINDER BUENOOOOOOO

STARE INTO THE FACE OF THIS FRIGGIN AWESOME WHITE KINDER BUENO PLS. ITS FRIGGIN PALATABLE AND THANKS TO PEA I CANT GET ENOUGH OF IT NOW. asshole hahaha.

oh my phone cant make calls sia. today some unknown number called. HELLO IF ITS ANY OF YOU PLS LET ME KNOW! SORRY!! HAHAAH. my speaker spoilt i think, no sound from my phone at all so i thought the person was playing a prank on me. then the 2nd time the person called i was like, IF YOU DONT SPEAK UP IM GOING TO CALL THE POLICE' ok but i was laughing HAHAAHAHA. he called me the 3rd time but still cldnt. aiyar i alrdy told the person to sms me cos my phone spoilt.

oh this means pea cant give me wake up call tmr AND i have no alarm cos my phone cant make any noise. GG. see how i wake up tmr.

heh.

下雨天了,

when we miss someone are we missing them or the memories? are we really missing something unique about them, or the events that took place when they were around. can you see yourself walking down that same street holding someone else's hands? or leaning on someone else's shoulder in a crowded MRT. i've been thinking about it and its a no. it has to be you.
thus, the truth is i am done pretending.

the hardest part of living is just taking breaths to stay.


怎么办, 我好想你
do me a favour and dont ask. cos if you dont know, you will never know.

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i missed staring at your name on my msn list tonight.
damn it, i am definitely camping at home after work tomorrow.
♥

(;

okay this was from thursday with pea. on the way to work.

was late hahaha. wtv!

friday night
took a bus to gertrude jiejie's house. walked to siglap area with gert and my sis to rent vcds to watch. had prata after that! then walked back. watched the wedding game and penelope. didnt watch my best friends girl cos they were tired. so we all went to bed at 4am plus. the room i slept in was pitch dark haha. but comfortable !


anyway woke at 12plus near 1. ate lunch, went marine parade to buy groceries to bake and stuff. went back and started baking heh.


my aunt, natasha, gertrude jiejie.






wah i look like housewife. HAHA



















tadah! haha. long story short luh. but they were all damn good!
okay my sis went class outing after that. but she never eat. met gertrude jieji and i later to eat popeyes at airport. I LOVE POPEYES TTMMMMMM. anyway tasha was there too. she's FREAK cute i swear.


todays sunset :D

okay, cherryl shall not..................anymore. JOYCE AND CHERYL PLEASE REMIND ME NOT TO OK. MUST.


can we be content yet striving for something better?

dying inside to hold you.

standing there i didn't know what to say
without one touch
we stood there face to face

And i was dying indside to hold you
i couldn't believe what i felt for you
dying inside, i was dying inside
but i couldn't bring myself to touch you

of trials and tribulations.

went work with pea again today. was late but we kinda didnt bother. anyway before that we went mcdonalds to buy some breakfast to work. there was this indian woman called suba or something, in Bugis mcdonalds. she shld just quit her job and fly back to india. she was damn rude. just cos i added one more hashbrown she rolled her eyes at us. too bad ass, you angered pea hahaha. pea was like, '#$@$#! CB #$@#$#@ 3@$#@$#@$#@#!#$! CB@!#!$!' something along that line. hahaha. but the woman rly damn rude luh. hope pea calls to complain.

anyway headed to work then. did a little bit more today :D think i'll try to do alot more tomorrow. but im getting used to the job alrdy. vvv chilling. fina-f*cking-ly ended work at 4.30. met wj at Illuma. accompanied pea to buy food then walk her to MRT. omg i hope i can wake up tmr pea.

walked to suntec w wj. walkwalkwalk tried looking for dan's car thingy. met wj's friend, ate astons. i didnt eat luh, diet+saving money. anyway wj gave me his mushroom soup cos he claims he doesnt like mushroom but i rly think thats bull haha. thanks dude. after that i went my cousins house alrdy luh.

ate chicken stew there. wahhh damn nice hahaha. played with tasha. she's not that scared of me anymore haha. k then went home. totally blacked out on my aunt's car, damn tired.

anyway bestf mailed me a letter cos yea..

thanks bestf :D love you ttm.

ok tiredgalzz gonna sleep now. CANT BELIEVE I HAVE TO WAKE UP TMR. YAO WO DE MING PLEASE. haha i better jump out of bed at 7 lest pea kills me.

if only..

i just finished watching Friends. all ten seasons of it. its officially my favourite sitcom. im so sad it ended luh ): its the funniest, sweetest show ever i swear.

anyway yesterday met pea at alj. went bugis to talk and shop for awhile.

went home after that cos she had dinner w her bf.

went to work with her today. telesurveyor. pretty easy job luh. but no basic pay sia zzz.
mm.. kind of no mood leh. dont know why im feeling so moody also. sigh. tomorrow will be better.

the one with birthdays and surprises.

yay, so sheryl and i went to cher's house to surprise her. her reaction was totally worth it hahaha. sher and i make a great team man. ooo.

we bought her choc cake as a prank cos she doesnt like chocolate. haha it was for chermaine luh. her original food present.

her sis bought her the same thing haha. ice cream party much.


sher's gift!


my gift!

we took polaroids! the first few were spoilt cos the film got prob but you'll see what we did with that later.



heh, drawing on the spoilt polaroids.





cherryl's, sheryl's, cheryl's.


asshole went to put a :( at liverpool hahaha.
sheryl's is torres, no.9.
mine is w/o a doubt gerrard, no.8.
and cher's was ronaldo, no.7.

HAHA SHERYL DAMN CUTE.

she drew the powerpuff girls.
sheryl, blossom/ cher, bubbles/ cherr, buttercup


apart from blossom's vvvvvv miniscule face and eyeballz, HAHA bubbles looks retarded pls! O_O hahaha. and that ass went to colour my legs all black accidentally hahaha so i look like im wearing leggings. then i told her to add gloves for me.


sheryl's trademark.


:D hope you had fun cher!
love you ttmmmmmmmmmmmmmmz.


anyway the happiness kinda ended at 12am right after cher's bday. gosh, happiness is certainly short lived. =/ chill cherr, many other good things to look forward to.

i think this is the happiest weekend in ages.

firstly, (18may) HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL YEOOOOOOOOOOOO!

okay went out with wj yst (sun). met him and dan, who were there earlier, at bugis arcade. raced abit then dan had to book in so we sent him to the bus stop then walked back to check out mp3s and stuff. walked to Illuma to check it out to. most BORING PLACE EVER. dont bother checking it out youre not missing anything. went bugis street next. aiya he was looking for psp cover. bugis street damn hot and crowded luh -_- hate that place man.


decided to walk over to suntec. shopped, walked around carrefour and all that. then i felt like eating popeyes so we walked to singapore flyer. queue damn long so we sat down and started palying PSP hahaha he can't play DJ max man. he dont even wanna try lor!! ass haha. playplayplay and before we knew it one hour passed and the queue didn't get any shorter -_- so we decided to walk around the place to see if there's anything else. but in the end we decided to go straight to airport luh.


eh took bus to cityhall first cos he needed to top up card. haha i bet w him 10 bucks there's a bus from flyer to airport and i lost haha ass. but he nv take money la hahaha. oh i used coins cos i got no ezlink card. eh wth i never knew HMV sold merchandises like headphones, tshirts and stuff. THE NIKE HEADPHONES ARE GORGEOUS. tiff you shld totally get it! i was returning my standard ticket then i thought he went to top up his card luh but turns out he went to buy an ezlink card for me. HAHAHA AWWWW. so sweet right!! :D


took bus to airport. haha was hogging his PSP the whole time. he got 2 la nvm HAHAHA. eh dropped at T3 but didnt feel like eating anything there so went T1 instead. ate ajisen! wah super long since i ate that. then the plan was to go budget terminal asap cos he dont know what time the shuttle bus ends luh but turns out it was 24hours so we could chillax abit. but i wanted to go see budget terminal cos i never go before so we went anyway. oh the whole reason we were at the airport was cos he was waiting for his parents to come back luh. but at like 3am so accompanied him till as late possible bah.


went back to T2 then i was in this dilemma whether to take train or take bus then change bus again. decided to take train luh cos like 11.40pm alrdy think by the time i reach eunos also no more bus alrdy. so decided to take bus to parkway then take another bus to like eunos link or sth then walk home luh. wj offered to lend me cash to take cab from parkway but i refused luh otherwise owe everyone alot of money please HAHAHA.


eh so he waited for bus w me luh. when i got on the bus i took out my handphone from the front compartment and i saw the money that wj wanted to lend me la. HAHAHA KNS SO NICE OF HIM RIGHT. wah i think damn sweet lor. so thankssss lwj! eh if youre vv slow he slipped the money inside when i was on the phone luh.


this weekend has been so happy! totally zero emo moments. fri cher got her naval pierced, sat she went out with e and had a great time, today has been awesomezxzxz, and tmr is cher's bday! how happy is this!!?!!? :D:D



teehee, gnight :D
p.s thanks cher for the skirt ;)

never too far.

love mariah carey ttm. her voice is godly.

the bbestfriend ♥

went to parkway w bff today to get her belly piercing :D wahwah cher so brave all hahahah. v nice leh! im gonna save money and get hahaha.
wah told myself to save money but in the end still ended up buying so much food. AW MAN.


went back to her house. on the way we saw like 329237423 snails which made me damn happy pls!! :D she has polaroid so we took a few shots. my fav one.



&more


chatted chatted till 11plus then i walked home. wah her house and mine pretty near i realised.


anyway i told my dad to buy mac&cheesee for me :D

omg look at the glistening cheese. how to resist lor.
sad, i ate alot today ):


operation diet #83298432, failed. hahahahaha.
alrighty back to Friends. shit ah, i haven't been watching the other shows. ahhh. wah Heroes, How i met your mother, Gossip Girl and 90210. so many please -_- nvm nvmmm. eh actually i dont want school to start ah..


ohohohohhh v coming back soon! excited. :D