wah i hate it when a conversation goes like this.

A: what you doing later? can i join?
Cherryl: oh probably playing mahj or suppering.
A: so boring. ok nevermind.

LIKE, IF YOU HAD SUCH BIG FUN PARTY PLANS OF YOUR OWN you wouldn't even be knocking at my door asking for my company right. cos the whole world knows cherryl lum doesn't club and drink. SO, IF I DON'T SAY THAT CLUBBING AND DRINKING IS LAME AND BORING please do not comment on my activities as well. thats like telling a chess club member that his activity is damn boring. omg i hope one day you learn to play mahj and when you have 3 players and you call me to be the last I WILL NOT ANSWER YOU.

man, i am so drunk on anger.

when i look back at my older posts i realised i used to put so much thought into all my entries. maybe at some point i found it pointless since maybe no one is even reading this right now hahaha. BUT for the sake of myself when i am older and wish to reminisce, i shall.

again, i come to this space exhausted. i've just been so inspired by all the pretty bedrooms that i've come across that i have been obsessed with changing my bedroom furniture and rearranging everything. so i just dismantled my bookshelf today and threw it out. i was really just giving myself space to throw a lot more rubbish around my room. i even through out my study table hahaahha people think im crazy, im just uncluttering my life.

chinese new year is like freaking next week you know. and my sister very kindly bought me a dress which i really liked teehee. but THATS ABOUT IT. i have yet to do my nails, go for facial, make spectacles, clear finish my room, slim down, dye my hair again, JUST SO MANY FREAKING THINGS LA. IM SO STRESSED.

oh and please stop asking me if i found a job hahaha. its bloody annoying. and the one and only reason why i have yet to settle for a job is because i am too picky. thats all. simple as that.

i guess there's some truth to the saying 'once bitten twice shy'. i have paranoia issues i swear. i keep thinking anyone walking behind me wants to attack me and then i'll start to panic and my hands get clammy and i almost feel like crying till i realise it was a false alarm. i can't make you understand how it feels but i wish you dont have to go through the same thing ever.

long day tomorrow. you guys are probably thinking that i still sleep all day and party all night. hahaha i dont ok. anyway good night.

hi there. past few weeks have been exhausting. i think this is the point in my life where i feel like letting everything go. there were just so many incidents over the past few weeks which made me see things so much clearer. i really just dont wanna think about it anymore.

hahahahhahahahaahaaha im just filled with so much hatred and anger now. as always.

no one is worth it. no one is worth this.

feels like a downpour.

hiiiiii. :)

my right eye is now WAY bigger than my left eye thanks to getting the sore eye.

anyway tomorrow is a very special day. it is my 2 years with joshy and its also the longest i've ever been in a relationship hehe.

i wanna go to a shooting range in mlysia so badly. i really wanna learn to shoot a real gun. :(

the sky looks really grey and its kinda putting me in a bad mood too.

HELLO! happy 2013!! i think its time for a first post!

haha this is actually my second post. my first post was really moody and grey and i just didn't want to start a new year sounding like that SO, here i am.

I HAVE A SORE EYE. im so annoyed because it may take away my double eye lid which i so painfully created for myself by religiously sticking double eye lid tapes for like a year. so FML luh. it hurts to even blink. which sucks even more because i have a habit of blinking everytime my eyes are dry which is like 24/7. GROAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN.

im getting really antsy because i have yet to find a job. and its just that i have been set on finding this job which i believe i will find hahaha. maybe i am being too stubborn. i dont believe in doing something you dont like if you had the choice but maybe this is different? sighhh i dont know. so cross your fingers and pray for me!

sigh i know its not a good way to start the new year but i do feel like shit right now. hahahahahah okay bye.