i have no faith in second chances.
and i've lost faith in love.
its true that the person you least thought would hurt you, can kill you.
living everyday on the edge of my seat..
wondering when the fuse would blow again.

i hate running nose i hate running nose i hate running nose. its like, SNEEZE and 2 seconds later it starts flowing. dude, i think they are all living rent free in my nose. where does the mucus even come from anyway. HAHA okay my biology teacher is probably gonna be like "NOOOO SHE'S GOT NOTHINGGGGG" if he reads this.

anyway i think i'll fill up the yellow form and donate all my other organs too when i die. yup i want to. just hope im not wearing red when i die haha. cos like what, either i'll haunt all the nurses or i'll haunt all the people who take each of my organs which is a lot of work to do.

hihi! im glad to announce that my hair is finally growing and i am not going to cut it in another gazillion years hehehe. bye.

KILL ME.

hi my dears! so i've been feeling alot better since my previous post. but thats what life is all about isnt it - the ups and downs. haven't been doing anything lately. its the hols and my school only starts next year. so, yay! just a short post about my bkk trip and the mlysia trip after.

i still remember the excitement i felt when i was otw to the airport and checking in hehe. this is us on the plane. about 10 mins after take off :) myanmar airways flight was cancelled so we got transferred to thai airways which was fine by us.


we touched down about 5 bkk time and headed to the hotel, put our stuff down then went out for a walk.

i love their drink bottles.


yup after walking at big C we ate chicken rice at some street stall then went back to the hotel to rest. joshy and i chilled downstairs and met a big white dog which was soooooo cute but so dirty though. anyway i told the dog to come back tmr night and wait for me haha. it did.

breakfast and some fresh air in the morning. they all had these concrete walls and sandbags outside each building in case the flood reaches them i guess.


after some fresh air. oh anyway we decided to go on a 1 day tour to amphawhat and like the train station rly rly rly far away which costs us 1000 baht for the whole day. yup we went on the second day.


ok supposedly right, the train would come through and all the vendors would pull their carts and stalls which were already equipped with wheels, inside so that the train wouldnt crush anything. but anyway we didnt get to see it cos the train got delayed cos of the flood or something.




they have like chickens!?!??!?! :D


wah the beef noodles damn good.


there was a whole long stretch of these kinda shops along the train tracks. yup.

the coke bottles were huge!


just very fascinated with this shop haha.


took a boat ride around the island to different temples and places.




there was this place where you could see like tons of animals haha. its like singapore zoo where you can also pay like 8 dollars to feed the animals? yea like that - only its free. and the vege used to pay the animals comes at any cost you wish to pay.





notice only geok didnt have a picture of her feeding the goat haha. scaredy cat.

this monkey damn cute!




oh yea anyway there was this fenced up cage with tiny holes but the top was still the normal size grills. so i thought the orang utan was so poor thing so i fed it vege and it reached out from the top and scratched me. THAT BITCH.

after that i called it a crazy monkey and that its no wonder no one wanted to be friends with him and the orang utan started jumping around in its cage in a frenzy. CRAZY BITCH.

supposed to be a temple in a tree, or something.


went back on shore and they gave us free time to shop. wine :D was damn cheap. one bottle was like 30 baht max? thats like.. not even 1 dollar??


went to see fireflies at night around the island.


heeee.

okay anyway no pictures of them because as you know they are minute and my lousy camera from 2004 cant possible catch any of that.

right. there aren't many pictures after this anymore because it was just shop shop shop all the way and im too caught up with paradise to take photos of anything hahaha.
outside platinum.


back in the hotel after a fucking long day and we were still going to khao san in abit. haha.


same thing the next day. just shop shop shop.

oh myanmar airways was cancelled again so we took cathay pacific home which btw, SUCKED BALLS? i am never taking cathay again. such a bad flight man.
i was so tired i could have died. oh oh thai massage was awesomezxz. right. anyway.
singapore sun set :)

ah. home sweet home :D

so i kind of regretted agreeing to go to malaysia the next day cos when the time came for me to wake up i tell ya. all i wanted to do was slip and fall into a concussion just so i could continue resting. proud of myself but i did it anyway. i got up and went to woodlands! with joshy of course. met geok and jace there and headed in.

actually we just went to malaysia to enjoy and walk walk. wasn't for the shopping or whatever. oh right. we went there for the seafood. we watched in time in the afternoon though. 3 sgd. i loved it! and seafood. we ordered a hell lot. and i really mean a hell lot. but it only cost us like 200 rm which was like 20+ sgd each for that much food. my god. so worth it.

yada yada. by the time i came back to sg i was so beat i wanted to die. oh like, no one was in sg cos my sis was in penang and my parents were in korea so, yay me! haha. didn't do anything much also luh. practically wasted my freedom away.

BUT WHATEVER. ITS MY HOLS AND THATS WHAT MATTERS WHOOHOO. BYE.

certain events have led me to believe that people are selfish and incorrigible in all ways. even myself. sometimes we would rather lose something and regret our lives away than put down our pride and make peace. but some things can't be compromised with. dignity. self worth. if you've got them, keep them. always hold on to them. because when you dont, you'll end up like me. always thinking of why i did what i did. ive more regrets than if i had just let go and kept it all. being the bigger person actually makes me feel this small.

as i have lost myself, im unable to look up to the world like i used to. not many would understand, but it stems from something small. unable to clarify my thoughts and make a right move now because everything is a blur and its really tough to continue faking happiness as contrary to what they say, frowning uses less muscles than faking a smile. well, maybe just for me.

when i look into the night sky i count the stars but as i notice how miserable they are in numbers i fade into my bed again, all alone, getting what i deserved.

yay i am a free woman now! i actually regret not doing anything for my 21st HAAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHAAHAAHAHA. ah whats new. i always do things that i regret. anyway baby surprised me at my house hahahaha








hahahaha yup. i was genuinely surprised. thanks joshy! love you! :)
couldn't stay long with him though :( cos i had to study for my exam the day after ZZZZZZ is life throwing me lemons or what.

anyway went to prawn after my exam though i was hideous and outrageously tired but i refused to go home. haha the place was so nice i had to take a polaroid hehe.




hahaahaha my birthday so i forced geok to take one with me. i had to stop myself from bursting out laughing.

after that i had dinner with my family :) quite happy ah. everyone i loved was there :) yea including joshy! haha how awesome is that.
anyway. sad sad. never do anything for my birthday :( no party no presents HAHAHA. okay fine.

anyway on a lighter note im going bkk in likeeeeeee 3 days hehehe. i know its flooding and all thanks for the concern mah peeps. i'll have a party with the snakes and crocodiles.

ah well. pretty bummed out about my 21st. i'll just go watch my show and day dream. byebye!