these few days have been awesome. many things happened, many new experiences but many things to keep my mind off them too. overall, im lucky to have awesome friends.

it's not so bad the second time around. especially when you're not over the death of your first mouse. the second blow just comes like the remaining breeze after a hurricane. i don't foresee my last mouse living much longer cos it will probably die of loneliness.

i think my life is that of a straw. really hollow. sometimes some excitement flows through, but mostly just hollow. the worst part is the excitement falls out either way.


when you're single for too long you get bored and you feel like getting into the game again. the game is important. find the wrong players and you would rather stay out of it. sometimes when you think you've found the suitable player they do something that turns you off and once again you find yourself outside the court, watching from the sidelines. you would rather sit alone along court than to join in with the low class players. that's what i end up doing most of the time.


life to me isn't about the physical fun, its about what really goes on in your head. what you're thinking when youre not talking, that's who you are, thats life.

let's just say i don't like to talk much about my life.

Yesterday was by far the most fucked up day of the month.

First i came home and saw the limp body of Fandy my mouse. It was the fattest mouse of all but when it was dead, fuck was it small. kinda like shriveled up. fucking sad ah i cry until 3pm then i sleep. i was home at like 9am. even then i found it hard to close my swollen eyes. ya thanks to everyone who thought it was a joke okay, thanks.

Secondly, i went to work with a fucked up mood and fucked up mood + bitch in me = trouble. made wilson pissed cos i slammed his precious car door like super hard. ya i like to do fucked up things la ok. in my nature can't help it. just that i really dont expect people to get mad at me. like i said before, most of my friends rly just forgive me for everything i do. thank god.

after that was just damn fucked up all the way la dont even wanna think about it. i used to think i can control when i want to act like a bitch and when i dont wanna. like i used to be this super nice push over when i was younger. dont knw. maybe got tired of it. maybe now it has become, me.

wah so fucked up. be nice cherryl. BE NICE. BE NICE. BE NICE. people only like nice sweet people. tch.

okays. new day new start.

good mourning.

): super sad.
giving up forever and ever amen.

hahaha okay hello. i realised i haven't really done a proper update since i don't know when.

okay as you all know i am working 7pm to 4.30am at starhub hahaha. please feel free to drop an email to customercare@starhub.com hahaha. but i won't guarantee i will be the one receiving your email la. hahaha. anyway its become a habit to eat after work and so i can already picture myself 3 months down the road when i quit my job, i will look like a real pig. FUCK SIA, HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT BUT DON'T PUT IN EFFORT? HAHA. if someone can invent such a thing i will invest my life on it. lmao

HAHAHHA SIDETRACK ABIT. MY MOTHER DAMN FUNNY LA. she texted me

"change your bedsheet and don't throw clothes on the floor"

then i sian right, i reply her

"Your message failed to be delivered. Please try again"

HAHAHHHAAHAHAHA THEN SHE REALLY SEND AGAIN LA. DAMN CUTE HAHAHAH.

ANYWAY i swear i am going to be less vulgar from today hahahahha. my reputation like damn bad hahaha. anyway i think 7 out of ten of my guy friends thinks my sister is hot. terence, you got competition. haha. sometimes i really think i was picked up from somewhere hahaha.


anyway i think dating is like a job application in some sense. when you look at someone you think you can progress with you will look at their qualifications, what future they have, finance and a good photograph helps. hahaha.

okay i'm not tired so i don't know what to do now hahaha. ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIEN I LOVE YOU!!

my mice are fucking cute la. they are all growing up fine hahaha. i tell you when they stretch and yawn your heart just MELTS.

THE LATEST HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER EPISODE IS SO TOUCHING.
heehee barney stintson is so adorable.