pea and jwen:

ok hi my bitches i know i haven't responded to any of your blogposts cos i've been so hell busy with last minute work. when did you all meet w/o me )): !? can we bring jwen's cat out again pls. hahaha. i dont know whats going on in your lives too :/ especially pea. no, actually jwen also HAHAHAHA. pea, talk about yourself pls! your life like revolves around school!?!?!! eh we can't meet cos i am barely in school HAHAHA SORRY. like srsly, i think the only thing that hasn't changed about you is that you are always 30min-1hour early for anything. HAHAHA damn funny la everytime we wanna meet. &jwen IM SORRY i never really reply your texts. gahhhh i tell you why when we meet. HELLO I GOT SO MUCH TO TELL YOU ALL PLEASE?! exciting :D:D:D ok bitches i am meeting both of you next week. just hang at someone's house also can. eh jwen you bitch you gave pea alice in the wonderland you give me SHREK. SHREKKKKKK. hahaha eh i feel high just talking to you all like that hahaha! ok i love you guys lots lots!

i wrote everything i felt about my parents on a paper and burnt it. i hope it'll burn away my anger and sadness too.

otherwise i'd have to burn myself.

i'm happy that many friends out there want good things to happen for me. though not everyone has a similar opinion on whats best for me, i appreciate every single ounce of happiness anyone has felt for me. heart warming, keeps me going.

just celebrated anniversary w josh. i had a blast baby and i really wanna thank you for loving me.

you know, people are always trying to burst my bubble of happiness. you may think im being unrealistic and too dreamy because i believe sappy love cartoons and movies do happen in real life but i don't care. it makes me happy just to think of the 'what ifs'.

i think everyone should embrace their fantasies. whats the point of working hard for a good life ahead and all the money you guys have together when the magic is gone?

i'm glad this hectic week is over. on monday i never thought i'd see the light of friday. okay, saying i wanted to die was melodramatic but that was the gist of it.

i dont know why i've been feeling really shitty lately. all i've been thinking about is death. yea alright, tragic for a young life.

i dont like to apologise. i dont believe saying sorry makes things better. it just gives rise to a winner and a loser. i believe in looking out for body language/actions that might show signs of apology. i believe in the silent healing of relationships. time - a big influence.

i feel like i keep doing the wrong thing.

i was just watching Hannah Montana ( i know, i have a finance test at like 7pm later and i still have 2 chapters to go [bonds and capital budgeting.] BOTH OF WHICH I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT) and i thought about you cher :D i guess it was because of miley and lily and it reminded me of how we were in the past. This post is for you cher.

Im really sorry that we grew apart. I mean, being best friends with you could have grown into so much more right now but i guess it wasnt easy maintaining the friendship. I see how you are now and you have no idea how much i admire you. Youre in a good school, you have ambitions and good grades (seems like yesterday we were laughing about our psle scores), you have a boyfriend who wants the same things as you in life, awesome r/s w your family. i wouldnt take the first step of saying that youre happy the way things are because there could be so much more i dont know since we drifted but girl, things are looking up for you.

i always wondered what would have happened if i hadnt stopped hanging out with you. study together and stuff, maybe i wouldnt be such a failure in my studies haha. For what its worth, im sorry for being uptight and judgemental about kenneth. im with joshua and with everyone being so judgemental and all, i finally understand your past blog post about how bystanders will never understand what ken has done for you. i wish i could hv been there to share your joy though. I remember how we used to talk about ES and other guys in your life.

It'd be pretty weird to fix things now, despite the cliche saying of how its never too late. It'd be pretty awkward and all with years of empty memories between us. You've grown into this mature young woman with friends of the same calibre and im still stuck with being an obnoxious teenager. So i dont want to take away what you've worked so hard for by being this negative, sulky stain in your life.

Anyway im glad we were once awesome best friends and i love you!