i really think its the influence of emotional songs but i feel awful right now. like nothing is going right in my life, you know? i think im cursed to never ever be happy.

okay i can't believe i am taking time out from my bloody tight schedule to blog. tight schedule as in 8hours before i have to leave house for exam, and i still have 8 chapters to go and im not even confident for the 3 that i've studied for HOHOHOHOHO. yea thats what you get when you fall asleep for 6 hours before this. oh god. oh god.

anw baby im srsly sorry our timing is always the opposite! i'll see you tmr k love you!

after some time, there are just some people you realise you're better off without.

HAHAHAHAHA I JUST THINK ITS DAMN CUTE. THE ERROR PAGE FOR TUMBLR. LOOK AT THE ONE ON THE EXTREME LEFT. ITS LIKE DAMN BLOODY CUTE HAHAHAHAHA.

You know what I can't stop thinking about?
How we slow danced at the staircase landing for the first time even though we both didn't know how to and we just ended up twirling, hugging, and moving our feet slowly.
:)

whine. employment relations is such a fucking dry subject. but i guess anything beats physics/math. WHINEEEEEEEE. my mood is so awful now. i srsly think im gonna fail everything. no joke. omg i hate studying. i hate hate hate hate studying. HATE.

university is like damn fucking hard please -_-

in the course of studying for well, 2hours max? if you minus out all the time i spent watching Lizzie McGuire (shut up! i haven't watched it before) and eating..... i drank like a gallon of water :D hehe yay. yea not coke, WATER.

Mad.

He's staring at me
I'm sitting, wondering what he's thinking
Nobody's talking 'cause talking just turns into screaming
And now as i'm yelling over him, he's yelling over me
All that that means - is neither of us is listening
And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we're fighting.

So both of us are mad for nothing
fighting for nothing
crying for nothing
But we wont let it go for nothing
Nothing,
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got

Baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain

Boy, i don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And i don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, i don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And i don't want you to go to bed mad at me

And it gets me upset, boy
when you're constantly accusing
askin' questions like you've already known
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing
This ain't the way that love is supposed to go

What happened to workin' it out?
We fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now?

It's all for nothing
fighting for nothing
crying for nothing
But we wont let it go for nothing
Nothing,
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got

Baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight
as long as everything's alright between us
before we go to sleep

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

i was awake till morning yesterday and i saw my parents leave for their short holiday. funny thing was when i got back to my room i just felt empty. the house really has no meaning at all without my parents. no one to order us around, keep things in shape. i know its like i feel bothered when they are at home and they keep asking me to do this and that this and that but my dad said before it won't be long before they are gone and my sister and i will part ways to start our own families and all. this has always stuck in my mind and thinking about it always makes me sad. what your parents tell you will always stick around till you're old and they are the words that matter.


anyway exams are in a couple weeks. ok i swear i will start studying next week. i think diploma was my downfall. everything was always last minute yet you are still able to score. now although im in university im still taking everything so lightly. geez. i think i will forever breeze through life like that and not make anything of myself haha.

i admire you for following your heart and taking something that you love. but some of us just don't plan for our future alone. we are so desperate to take a degree that will definitely get us a job and we dont care if its a desk bound one because we want the money. we want the money not only for ourselves but for our parents to have a good life when they retire too and bank loans that will be due in time. of course you will get a good job and earn big bucks but to some people its more important because not everyone is that fortunate.

note: this is NOT to start a war carrots&peas, just explaining the link (in my point of view) as to why some people relate psych to not being able to find a gd job and why its so important to them. psych was totally my dream when i was young and yes i do hate what i am doing now. ALSO not saying you will go to US and live happily ever after and dump your parents here la. NOTHING OF THAT SORT.

don't PMS k love you! and your pills DO NOT MAKE PPL HIGH STOP SAYING THAT!!!!

Today joshy goes back to camp and reverts to stay in for the whole week. Yup previously he was stay out so we were able to meet every night. Anyway. We decided to meet at 4am for an hour or so before he goes back to camp for an entire week and i overslept. Yup. But but but. The amazing thing about joshy is that he did not leave after like half an hr or so. When i woke at 515 he was still downstairs waiting patiently. He amazes me :) his love amazes me. Awww.

Dont be jealous of my bf bitches ;D

went for jiawen's dance concert in Temasek Poly just now. its theme was to celebrate life. it was really inspiring. stuff like that always gets me thinking but sadly the moment only lasts for awhile. its difficult to constantly inspire yourself yet there are new people becoming inspirations everyday.