The worst part has got to be facing it alone. Because, where the fuck is everybody when you need them right?

Moving forward.

I've been so tired and busy that I, Cherryl, didn't have the energy and time to blog. I have to say that just after 3 weeks I already feel like a working adult (which I think I am) and I never ever thought I would remember bus and train schedules. Like ever. Well I'm proud to say I've only been late like twice in 3 weeks. And its mostly because I couldn't squeeze up the friggin train not because I woke up late. I've also mastered the art of walking at amazing speeds and dodging oncoming pedestrains like a ninja. 

All in all work has been so fun and I'm really starting to ignore people who look down on my job or who don't get that everyone has to start somewhere. Because these people are not going to grow with you so you might as well drop them like they're hot. I've come to realise that support is really important and it helps if your friends are at the same stage of life as you are or same situation. 

I was quick to judge the people in my class during the first week but now at my third week I'm really regretting judging them so quickly because they are actually all SUCH nice people. :') I need to kick my bad trait of being introverted. Believe me I am trying but there really are a lot of times throughout the day where I just feel like being alone. 

Most of all, I've found this new zest for life and my 20s. I'm not going to waste the prime of my life sulking and bitching about trivial people and matters. I hope my friends would grow with me and share the same passion for living life.

Wah type sibei long. HAHAHA the person upstairs was like my inner voice. and here i am! sound more normal right. anyway i had the worst day ever but tomorrow is a new day hahaha. okay im actually down with a flu and fever and i feel like there's an alien in my uterus slowly ripping it apart. if ya know what i mean. hehe night my little ducklings. 

Happy halfway-mark anniversary spiderpig! Thank you for loving me and accepting me for exactly who I am. ilu! 

Being content.

So recently I've felt like people are being freaking nice to me and I don't deserve it at all. Why would anyone bother to be nice to someone who, for the better half of her life, only bring people around me down? But there are really such friends who exist and I can cry thinking of how nice people are to me. Not enough words to express how guilty I feel for being so negative all the time, even when people are constantly trying to make me feel better. 

I think it really all boils down to how well someone knows you. Like Lucien was being really really sweet last week. After expressing what a shitty day I had on my first day and all, he said he would ask me how work went till I finally tell him that it went alright. Even if he doesnt do it after that, the gesture really goes a long way. 

And Peiwen and G were being so nice. This is kinda personal so I wont type it out but they are lifesavers and they know me the best.

And even this morning, Joshy surprised me and sent me to Joyce's ROM. Even if he didn't mean to surprise me it made me really really happy cos afterall he's in the midst of exams and all. Thank you babypie for understanding so well what I need :) 

And how did i get so lucky to attend joyce's wedding and be her maid of honor, i will never know. And furthermore i stepped on her gown and it ripped HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHAHAH I HOPE YOU STILL LOVE ME JOYCE. 

And recently i started talking to Nichy again. And the best thing was there was no awkwardness at all. Like, how did i get so lucky? He is really the only guy friend I love so much besides lucien. sigh. 

And my parents are so freaking nice too. ah i wont elaborate but HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY? 

I needa count my blessings everyday so that i wont end up emoing about stupid shit again. I LOVE ALL OF YOU!