you know, i was on the bus today and as these thoughts were running through my head it all stopped at one conclusion - God is super partial.

i was dragging my feet to work as i was feeling super sian cos not working with anyone familiar today so i was thinking how nice it would be if i were an animal then i dont have to go to work ah. everyday just walk around aimlessly sleep wherever i like THEN CAME THE MAJOR ISSUE. if i were an animal on the streets i would have no FOOD ): hahahaahh. how important is that man.

awwwww i knocked over a glass of liquor on a guest today hahahaha. it was SUPER. EMBARRASSING. cos he went like 'whoa!' then he stood up then the whole table also gasped so everyone around just stopped and looked. thanks. ughhhhhhhh. urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhh.

aiya. wtv haha. i don't feel like working already sia. i have my valid reasons haha. you would support my choice if you saw my toes.

yawn. i just wanna nua until school starts.

"no i can't be with you cos i'm scared
felt like i was falling when you left me
i can't keep going through life
unaware of what im missing or the person that i could be
love's good when its right,
bad when it's left in your memory
all the times i let you down
i guess love would be nice for someone else's life."
I'm not missing you, Stacie Orrico

wah super true hahahaha.

LIKES
*Truth
* Hidden Causes
* Being involved
* Work That is Meaningful
* Being Persuasive

DISLIKES
*Being Given Only Surface data
* Taken Advantage of
* Demeaning Jobs
* Shallow Relationships
* Flattery and Flattering

read this from an astrology site HAHAHA. wtv, non-believers. scorpios are awesome.
there was also a problems and solutions part which really hit home and i'd just like to say im sorry to a few friends. namely jonnie, calvin, keith. sorry for being so curt and rude all the time. yea i tend to be harsh on the guys.

and to the rest of my friends whom i've recently been a snob/a seemingly disinterested and distant person/a pain to talk to, im sorry as well. im not feeling down or wtv. im actually really at peace with myself and i have managed to steer clear of all thoughts that have the potential to upset me for about 2 weeks now. i guess i feel that if i indulge too much in conversations with people who know me, they would ask me questions or say something to make me face issues that i dont wanna face. thus, i would rather engage in meaningless conversations with acquaintances.

i know that even on supposedly normal days i would have this tinge of moodiness to my expression and replies but i mean no harm. you don't have to be weary of me or guard your words to suit my mood cos more often than other i am actually really feeling normal. and as it turns out, you making random guesses at my mood or random guesses at what's making me sound moody really annoys the hell out of me so please don't even try if you don't even think you're close. and most of the time you wont be cos i'm unpredictable.

okay. that's as clear as i can put it. :D:D i don't bite!
love.

today i served at a wedding of a couple who were together since sec1. hahaha super sweet la the slideshows and all. i totally teared hahaha. it was really damn awesome!! :D best part of my job haha. and the table i served today was super nice too! HAH ADRIEN, i had fun, too bad you didn't get your wish!

wah i was thinking, so far all the weddings i went to were young couples who knew each other since JC or secondary school. i wonder how i'll get to know my husband right. not fun already luh sec sch and JC all over already. pfft.


ugh. okay just finished eating my fried beehoon. coke goes well with everything (: gonna read my cleo then go to sleep. BYE.

SCHOOL IN 4DAYS :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

okay despite my mentally arduous attempt to sleep, it turns out that i am an owl and there is no chance of me falling asleep before 5am max. so here i am, after an hour of trying.

sometimes music irritates me. its not true that there's a song for every moment/mood. the silence of the night is heartbreakingly beautiful and no song can be compared to it unless it is the song of a thousand mutes.

current thing that has the potential to annoy me:
1. the question 'hows work/school'
especially if i told you 101 times im having holidays now, no school/i dont have work today.

interesting facts i picked out from the net.
1. Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.

2. The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear.

3. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.

4. When hippos are upset, their sweat turns red. (HAH SO CUTE)

5. The only 2 animals that can see behind itself without turning its head are the rabbit and the parrot.

6. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair. (explains my hair colour. hahahahahahahah)

7. If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural cause.

8. The human heart creates enough pressure while pumping to squirt blood 30 feet. (wah imagine your heart beat increases when you see your eyecandy. bet you wanna squirt all your blood at him)

okay! its 4.26am. i am so good at wasting time really haha. i love searching the net for random facts and stuff!
nighttttttttt !

I WANT THESE SO BADLY YOU KNOW ): from Urban originals. but shipping is so fucking expensive )))))))))): )))))))): ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):


fuckkkkkkkkk. i wanttttttttt.

fuck lor. i had the worst nightmare in my life. i can remember i was on my bed, i found val's diary cos she left it there. it had alot of bad stuff in it, i was damn shocked, was about to go confront her so i went to take lift. when i was in a lift and suddenly the lift fell from 5 to 3 then got stuck for awhile and fell straight to floor 1. zzzzzz. i was among people la. i remember seeing victor.....druggie... i was standing with a guy who really protected me with his life BUT I CANT RMB WHO. fuck sia. nevermind surroundings became damn dark then some bloody witch/demon/devil appeared. i mean LITERALLY HAVE BLOOD ALL OVER OK FUCK FUCK FUCK. typing this sends chills down my spine. i buried my face in the guys shirt ah cos he told me its safer. she came for a child cos she claims the child crossed her path or something but for some reason she couldnt take the child so she said she'll take the next person who crossed her path AND THATS ME COS SHE WAS IN THE LIFT WITH ME OR SOMETHING NABEI!? THEN SHE STARTED PULLING AND PULLING ME AWAY FROM THE GUY (i had my eyes shut the whole time cos i didnt wanna remember her face) thank god the guy was strong sia she didn't succeed in the end. im so indebted to the guy i swear. yar after that i forced myself to wake up cos i cldnt take it anymore. ............................................. ):

i went to check dreammoods.com to see what it means. since i dont know wtf she was i checked all 3 ah.

Demons
To see demons in your dream, represents ignorance, negativity, distress or your shadow self. It also forewarns of overindulgence and letting lust give way to your better judgment. As a result, your physical and mental health may suffer.

Devil
To see the devil in your dream, signifies fear, limitations, and negative aspects of yourself. You may be harboring feelings of guilt. It is time to release these feelings. Alternatively, the devil represents intelligence, cunningness, deception, and cleverness.

To dream that you fight off the devil, indicates that you will succeed in defeating your enemies.

To dream that the devil talks to you, suggests that you will find certain temptations hard to resist even though you know it is not in your best interest.

Witch
To see a witch in your dream, represents evil, destructive, and dangerous feminine forces. It may point to your negative ideas of anything feminine and your experiences with heartless women.


sigh. think of coming home alone tonight damn sian.

and joyce says 'happy belated birthday!'
lmao.

angry post aside, its 8 more days to school ! :D excited haha. i love getting started on new stuff, then i'll lose interest in the middle but i'll deal with that later haha.

yea.. somethings not right.

yesterday i had the same sting in my heart i've been having for years. recently i've been having the same sting in my lower abdomen. it comes and suddenly the whole world stops - no breathing, no movement. 'don't touch me', i would mouth. makes me wonder how much more painful it is to be stabbed with a knife.

am i the only one who breathes consciously?

my pair of wrong sized shoes is taking its toll on my feet. i feel like the ancient women in China who bind their feet for god knows what reason. and every step i take is like stepping on.. i can't even find a description. ughhhhhhhhhhhh UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. other than that its fun (: i finally met adrien today!!!! :D we're working under the same company but not necessarily the same events (: makes me think about how much i want to go back to school. (((((:

eh i was thinking, even if you have a car also no use what. say you drive to a party then you drink alot then you also cannot drive home at 4am right. and i have friends who do drive to parties but they dont drink cos they have to drive home after hahaha then whats the point man.

went out with nich and dilys yesterday (friday) (:

it rained, so we cancelled our plan to have a picnic! decided to visit the peranakan museum instead. (honestly i dont think it's called peranakan museum but dilys insists hahhaha)

raffles city's street cafe or something.

hahahaha dilys super pretty lah wth!

haha how often do you see photos of nich like this!!!!!? i swear im damn pro hahahaha.

she injured her wrist haahahahah looks like a sweatband right hahhaha

outside SMU business school! we were convinced we were near the museum HAHA.

machiam wedding photo HAHA

haahahah totally unplanned shot HAHA AND SHE STILL LOOK GOOD CAN YOU BELIEVE IT HAHAHAHA

went to look for cher at SMU ((:

eh i forgot what museum is this la HAHA. singapore museum i think, opposite the singapore arts museum!

HAHA DONT BE FOOLED PEOPLE. I THOUGHT HE WAS DAMN STRONG YOU KNOW THEN DILYS TRIED AND SHE TOLD ME HE WAS JUST RESTING HIS WHOLE WAIT ON THE SEPARATOR.

i dont know what is this but they said it was high voltage haha. i was thinking its for lightning HAHA ok lame.

oh that was on the way up to fort canning. but we still couldn't find the stupid peranakan museum HAHA so we just went cathay to chillzzz.

after checking my examination results haha. disappointment i must say.

omg dilys like BLOODY pretty hahahah. okayokay.

first day of work today (saturday). i screwed up so many times HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAAHHAHAAH NEVERMIND LAAAAAAA. omg i swear man. the people must be thinking hyatt's standard sucks balls hahahaha. i worked as the stupid waitress for banquets eh. let me list out the number of wrong things i did HAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

1. clear the flowers from the table. i poured the flower vase's water on a small boy HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA AHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I SWEAR I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD I AM SO SORRY. nabei the glass vase fucking heavy la 2 somemore! FOR SHOW ONLY WHO CARES WHAT MATERIAL THEY MAKE IT FROM MAN.

2. i served the black chicken ginseng soup ah. then i served the soup into bowls and left. i didn't put the bowl on their plates and I DIDN'T CUT UP THE STUPID BLACK CHICKEN FOR THEM HAHAHAHAHAHA HAHAHAHAHHA OH MY GOD. i wonder who went to do it HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

3. i tilted the sauce i was serving and it spilt on the table. HAHAHA THEY STARE AT ME LEH OMG I WAS DAMN SCARED I JUST PRETEND ITS NORMAL AND I LEFT HAHAHAHA.

4. i poured a few cups of overflowing chinese tea.

5. by the end of the night my hands were shaking already cos the stuff damn heavy then when i clear their bowls with the spoon inside, can hear the spoon shaking in the bowl. you know, that kind of sound HAAHAHAHAHAHA DAMN EMBARRASSING.

hahahaha aiya alot of small small ones but i dont care la. not like the guests will go and complain to the hotel lor its not even their wedding HAHAHA. sian leh have to work again tomorrow. fuuuucking sian. dont think i can last when school reopens HAHAHA. wah sibei cui la my determination.

anyway my shoes were one size smaller cos the stupid agent brought the wrong size for me and when i came home my toes were bloody HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. i have a fucking ingrowth damn it. still must squeeze my feet into such small shoes. he confirm dont believe me when i said 8 thats why he brought 7 la see. SEE. haha nevermind, my agent v funny&cute, i'll forgive him.

kkkkkk gonna watch finish my japshow and go to bed.

admit it, its dumb.

okay, if there's something that i find REALLY stupid, it has GOT TO BE BINARY CLOCKS/WATCHES.

check it out.

do you know how you're supposed to tell the time from that? bet 90% of you don't so let me do the honors. the top row represents HOURS and the bottom, MINUTES. and to tell the friggin time you've got to add the numbers up. so it is supposedly 7:49, according to the watch.

okay number 1, LETS SAY I AM REALLY BAD AT MENTAL SUMS AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HELL IS 32 + 16 + 1.
what if a murder occurred and you were the only eye witness. you try to remember the time of accident by looking at your stupid binary watch but you do not know that its faulty so one dot doesn't light up and you give the police an inaccurate timing which would affect the suspect's alibi. or by the time the police comes to clear the body you are still figuring out what is 32+16+8+4.

another scenario:
your smartass girlfriend changes all the clocks and watches in the house to binary ones. you wake up on the morning of a damn important exam and you need to know what time it is. but fuck no you can't cos you are 34 years old still trying to get your Olevel cert and you can't remember how to read a fucking binary clock!
p.s. dump your smart ass girlfriend.

check out the binary CLOCKS.



like wtf is that?!!?!? morse code?!?! IF I WANTED TO TAKE FOREVER TO TELL THE TIME I WOULD HAVE GONE TO EAST COAST PARK TO OBSERVE THE SUN AND SHADOWS OK THANKS.

DO YOURSELVES A FAVOUR AND GET

A DIGITAL WATCH.

okay. went over to jiawen's. chilled till night time then headed to alj mcdonalds to join jon and joycey. i loveee them :D ate then just chilled ah. the kind of outing i like hahaha. no pressure no nothing. but can only be done with like super good friends otherwise like nothing to talk hahahaha. ahhh mcdonalds have no more power plug and you cant pay by EZlink anymore wth!! ):

jon left early ): ok la not early like 10pm hahaha. so when 3 girls are left we obviously cam whore hahaha. jiawen took joyce's liquid paper and started doing my nails hahaha. then i did her!
mine is the top one hers is the bottom! hahhaha she do for me like super messy lor!!!



haha she made me do this face which i cant cos i cannot do this kinda big actions i will look damn retarded HAHA


she so pretty here!


oh thats when we started drawing each other HAHAHA
SHE DREW ME HAHAHAHA NOT BAD RIGHT



HAHAHAHAHAAH OMG I MADE HER LOOK LIKE A WITCH HAHAHAHA HAHAHHAHAHA IM SO SORRY GIRL HAHAHAHA


then we drew joyce!! hahaha
JIAWEN'S! HAHAHHA LOOK AS BAD AS MINE LOR


HAHAHAHA MINE. eh what i really think got resemblance HAHA


before jiawen and i left!





loves!