hello! today wasn't much better. but that's alright. i've decided to just keep it all inside me and implode when i can't take it anymore. i sincerely hope my heart bursts from my insides and rupture all my vital organs at the same time.

went to the dentist today! i haven't gone there in years, literally. anyhoooo, now i know why i hate going so much.

firstly, EVERY SERVICE of dentistry is overpriced. i spent $400 today. yes, four fucking hundred. all i did were 2 fillings, albeit for the front row of my teeth. and i didn't want the filling turning yellow months down the road so i opted for the more expensive bonding. but STILL. FOUR HUNDRED LEH. if im not wrong that's like half the price of braces? i don't know. i should have just broke all my teeth in secondary school and went to the National Dental Center to get dentures cos im sure you know that as long as you are in a government school all your dental services at NDC are free. damn.

secondly, i hate that they tug at my mouth and thus stretch my lips to its maximum limit. i swear if i open any bigger my lips will just tear apart and bleed profusely. ok im not exaggerating. i have extremely dry lips which i just LOVE to peel so i can't stretch them (or put lipstick). cos if i do they are bound to split. ouch.

anyway i appreciate that he gave me a fucking painful injection to numb the whole area but i walked out of there looking like an idiot i swear. my lips were drooping to one side. and i had absolutely zero control. so i took a cab to josh's place :( what a waste of money. i hate taking cabs when i have a straight bus and plenty of time to kill. anyway if i could go back and say one thing to my dentist today it would be, 'LIAR'. i ended at 5. he told me the numbness would be gone in half and hour. it was numb till freaking 9pm leh. 9PM LEH IS IT HE GAVE ME 100$ WORTH OF ANESTHESIA THATS WHY SO EXPENSIVE. i couldn't even drink my bubble tea la the pearls kept dropping out HAHAHAHAHA WHY GOD WHY. 

okay im damn free now, as i am everyday, thats why i still blog religiously. i think i will still blog when i have kids. then i will bitch about the fact that my child is a girl and now i have to spend thousands of dollars on sanitary pads for her - plus the fact that i will be the one shopping for them. tears.

haha bye.