sucks. sam is right. i'm like fucking back to square 1. i like having the queasy stomach aches and the anticipation of receiving a text from someone you like but i hate it when it becomes one of those situations where you can't fucking get past a day w/o hearing from them. damn frustrating. i guess i wasn't ready to be one on one with you yet. cos now there are just surges of memories from the day we met till now. its the expectations i swear. the fucking expectation that since you msged me when you needed me you would be bound to do it even after i helped you. STUPID OR WHAT. YOU THINK EVERYONE LIKE AN ANGEL AH CHERRYL LUM. STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP EXPECTING THINGS TO HAPPEN. OMG! OMG! OMG! WHY DO SUCH PERIODS IN MY LIFE HAPPEN SO OFTEN. why can't i just let things go. why why why why why why why why why do i need a real hard fall to get over things. WHY AM I SO VULNERABLE. WHY DO I ALWAYS MEET PEOPLE THAT I CAN'T LIVE W/O FOR A CERTAIN PERIOD OF TIME. i doubt there's anyone who had the same feeling about me. omg i'm like fucking left on the shelf. HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHA L.