another day has passed.. i'm out with friends and my body is laughing but my soul is staring into thin air. i try. i try to let the smile reach my eyes.. but somewhere along the way it dies out. i truly understand the meaning of pain behind the mask. don't have to ask me whats wrong.. because i myself am not sure. i wish i knew. it would be easier to eradicate the problem if i knew the root of it. right now i'm just lost. its true - these tears have no meaning. i could cry you a river.. but it'd be as dead as i am inside.