i think its sad when you tell everyone that its okay but subconsciously you still do stuff that obviously proves youre not okay. why do people keep doing things that don't help in the situation that they are in and keep hoping that this is a dream and something is bound to change in the end so that there will be a happy ending? awwww its so unfair that you're going about your life so normally. if you knew about the misery you're causing others would you still be so happy?
okay that wouldn't make sense to anyone unless you are me but its so hard to keep it all in. ): the more i try to stay away from such feelings the more they come back and disturb me. ):

you know, if i could have it my way, i would choose to live in a world without emotions. i don't care about being human. okay, i'll let everyone else have feelings. i wanna be like the tinman in Wizard of Oz without a heart. i wanna be a robot. oblivious to everyone's feelings so that nothing can affect me. selfish? we all are.