wow now i know how it feels like when you're the only happy person on earth at the moment. quite a feat for me. not exactly over the moon but i really haven't been upset over anything much for damn long already. well, not since exams ended and ALL my friends are just plagued with problems right now. some i can't solve, some i can only listen. hohum.

relationships are such a pain in the ass. i mean i've always hoped for some prince charming to sweep me off my feet and dance with me in a mysterious secret garden (in singapore you'd probably be caught for trespassing) or beside a lake at sundown when the water reflects the orange gentle sun set. watch too many dramas. i hate that we have so much technology now. fucking hell if i wanted to run away from home and into my prince charming's arms, literally run like in the olden days, i'd probably end up flagging a cab or texting him to pick me up or something. how do they run in those huge dresses anyway, so unrealistic. maybe last time no global warming.

whatever happened to all the romantic gestures instead of just sending a "i miss you" or "i hope you get well soon honey!" or "i wish you were here" text -_- fucking hell if you really wished i was there come find me and i will be there with you. and i HATE, i mean absolutely HATE IT when guys text and say "aww sick?! i hope you get well soon!!" like fucking hell i've come to a point in my life where words are plain CHEAP, DIRT CHEAP to me. especially guys who claim they like you. call me a bitch but no action no talk. you wanna talk big about sending me home even if you live damn far away and all, sure, show me you can do it. sigh, get pissed thinking about how cheap today's guys are and how freely they throw words around like they carry no weight. thats why i feel especially sad when i see how my girlfs camp by the phone just waiting aimlessly for ONE sweet text from their boyfs. fuck all their boyfs. have some balls, be a real gentleman ok, not some cheap bastard who takes the easy way out.

for example (good example) when i broke up in j2 i was like fucking upset and one of the guys that formed an impression was nicholas peck. he didn't just sit behind his computer screen and type "i hope you feel better already!" fuck that. he came all the way to my house and gave me a whole bunch of chocolates. now that's what im talking about. action.

i don't know. i think its experiences like that that keep pushing up my expectations of guys. which is why i really can't stand guys who just talk and talk. text-chasing was so secondary school. sigh. its quite bad by the way, i get so irritated by what they do i just totally rule them out without even considering. walau, gonna be left on the shelf old woman.



yup. i really like to blog about random things huh.