everything was everything, but everything is over.

its hard to stay high.

its rare that we make an important choice after considering the feelings of people who may be affected. most of the time we just see what we want in our eyes and go for it. which results in someone in the dark being hurt - but not like you'd care right?

5:47am
oops i did it again.
omg. having insomnia seriously sucks. went to bed at 3, woke at 4? laze around trying to sleep till 5 woke up and did the stupidest thing ever. AHHHHHHH I CUT MY FRINGE, AGAIN. OH I FEEL LIKE CHOPPING OFF MY HANDS NOW. omg, fugly.

AND I KNOW WHY IM FEELING SO DOWN ALRDY. OMG. THIS IS REALLY REALLY BAD MAN. NEVER HAPPEN TO ME IN MY LIFE BEFORE cos normally i would tell myself its impossible dont even think about it. then i'll just get on with whatever BUT I DONT KNOW WHY I CAN'T SEEM TO LET IT GO NOW oh fuck. this is bad.