when i look back at my older posts i realised i used to put so much thought into all my entries. maybe at some point i found it pointless since maybe no one is even reading this right now hahaha. BUT for the sake of myself when i am older and wish to reminisce, i shall.

again, i come to this space exhausted. i've just been so inspired by all the pretty bedrooms that i've come across that i have been obsessed with changing my bedroom furniture and rearranging everything. so i just dismantled my bookshelf today and threw it out. i was really just giving myself space to throw a lot more rubbish around my room. i even through out my study table hahaahha people think im crazy, im just uncluttering my life.

chinese new year is like freaking next week you know. and my sister very kindly bought me a dress which i really liked teehee. but THATS ABOUT IT. i have yet to do my nails, go for facial, make spectacles, clear finish my room, slim down, dye my hair again, JUST SO MANY FREAKING THINGS LA. IM SO STRESSED.

oh and please stop asking me if i found a job hahaha. its bloody annoying. and the one and only reason why i have yet to settle for a job is because i am too picky. thats all. simple as that.

i guess there's some truth to the saying 'once bitten twice shy'. i have paranoia issues i swear. i keep thinking anyone walking behind me wants to attack me and then i'll start to panic and my hands get clammy and i almost feel like crying till i realise it was a false alarm. i can't make you understand how it feels but i wish you dont have to go through the same thing ever.

long day tomorrow. you guys are probably thinking that i still sleep all day and party all night. hahaha i dont ok. anyway good night.