Last post for 2012

Hello!

2012 is coming to an end and as usual, it's a time of reflection and resolutions. I'm pretty disappointed that the world didn't end this year - seeing how I haphazardly wasted every minute of it. This year has really flown by so quickly that I haven't been able to make much memories of it, mostly lessons learnt.

1stly: I'm grateful for graduating and finally getting my degree.

Taking a RMIT course has shown me that there are many more retarded people out there and that I stand a chance in society. Facts. It has also taught me that if I pray hard enough, I will pass my exams. HAHAHA I'm kidding. It's true though, that sometimes in life, you can get by with pure luck. But don't try this in your lives, amateurs. I'm also grateful for the awesome company in school. I don't have a truckload of friends but those 2 are all I need.

Lucien; I don't know what we would do if you didn't gather last minute information from all your friends hahaha. And your gazillion Fun Facts every time we study and your willingness to travel all the way to my area to study every single time. Your company has been an awesome addition to school so thank you. For spending my birthday with me and for being one of the nicest and most interesting guys I will ever know. We may or may not cross paths in the future but thanks for being a bro. ♥

Geok; I really don't know what I would do without you. Without you to cab me to school HAHAHA kidding. No not really. hahaha. I will truly miss burning the midnight oil with you though now instead of studying, we just sit around doing nothing. Nothing much has changed and I really hope we stay this way, forever. I hope I succeeded in making you say 'fuck you' at that. Throughout our entire schooling life you have been saying that you are being mean to me to make me a stronger person and despite me saying fuck you to that every time, its worked to a certain extent. You've been there for me in more ways than one. You've helped me through some dark times and you are the only one I can put down my pride with and candidly ask for help. I don't know if I've done enough for you but you have done enough for me and I promise that when I start working I will not every time say 'no money' hahaha and I promise to always make time for you. Don't say 'no need', I know you also lonely boy haha. Aiya, no need to type until we not ever gonna meet again, I will probably be seeing you tonight hahaha. Thanks for being 3-in-1 like instant coffee - a friend, sister and bro. I LOVE YOUZZ. ♥♥


2ndly: I'm grateful to be alive.

I know it's ironic since I wanted the world to end. I had a shock of my life after my outrage of modesty incident and until now I still have a phobia. But I'm glad that it taught me to fear the night and that there really are monsters out there. Oh it also taught me how inefficient the police are hahaha. It has also brought me closer to my family though they probably don't think so. But their concern makes me want to be a better person. I'm thankful for the people who have showed their concern via this incident.

Sister; You ask the most retarded questions and you might as well be the new annoying orange. But you brighten up this family and I will cry when you move out. I'm sorry for being mean to you, I know you care about me and that my judgement is sometimes clouded by my intense distrust at anyone that treats me nicely. Although we've skipped ahead on several steps of sister bonding and its too late to go back now, I am proud to tell people that you are my sister and all the nice things that you do for me. I love you and I'll be there for you any time you need to rant. ♥♥♥♥

Mummy&Daddy; I know I've been a pain in the ass for many years now. I used to think that you guys would be better off without me, thought of running away, dying. All this when I was young and ignorant of course. Thank you for loving me even though I am such a rotten, hot tempered child. Thank you for giving me so much in my life, a wholesome family, an annoying sister, every single thing I have is yours. Your hard work and sweat and blood. Don't worry, in a few months time you both can sit at home and shake leg while Jie and I bring home the bacon. Thank you for putting up with the mess in my room and the smelliness of my very cute gerbils (which also love you by the way). I couldn't ask for a more loving and funny family. ♥♥♥♥

3rdly: I'm grateful for mahjong.

For the longest time now, my hobby has been mahjong. I may be a sore loser at times but I still love the game and the lessons it brings - its not all gambling. It has taught me not to be calculative. I believe mahjong is a judge of a person's character and disposition. I'm not quite there yet but I know people who are. I know people who make the game fun and I know people who kill the game. I'm still learning but I believe that no matter how much you feel like banging the table and throwing the tiles when you are losing, you have to smile and just get on with it. Also, I've learnt that I rather much play the game with people who are not calculative because they really just kill the game for everyone. Especially if they are supposed to be friends. The last lesson is of course, everyone has different rules when they play, just like life. It's all about compromise.

Amanda; You are my number 1 mahjong kaki and I will always have your number on speed dial. (Gonna add Shaun's soon hahaha). I absolutely LOVE playing mahjong with you and Shaun. Everything is so comfortable and no one is calculative. When you sing, I feel like I'm gonna 'Zi mo man'. When you laugh, I feel like I'm gonna 'An gang/yao'. I love how even when luck is not on your side you are still able to laugh and sing songs. You are one of the few players I know that are truly happy to play the game and is not just in it for the money. Which makes our meeting not only about winning money but also to spend time together and get to know each other better. Both you and Shaun have very very good character when it comes to mahjong and I really really wish the best for both of you. And the best for me the next time we play. HAHA KIDDING. ♥

Joyce; You are the last mahjong kaki I will call. Because you are so damn lucky. hahaha. Sometimes I feel like mahjong sessions with you are not about meeting up anymore, but more like financial war. Of course, no one plays mahjong to willingly give away money (unless I become a taitai next time with too much money), but every mahjong session with you, I sweat and sweat. hahahahaha. But 'gian', what to do. You are also one of the few people I know that when losing, still can giggle and giggle. Even though its weird sometimes because we used to be SO close and now we only meet to mahjong, I still wish you all the happiness in the world and hope that in many years to come, we would still meet occasionally for mahjong and high tea. hehe.  ♥

4thly: I'm grateful for love.

I attended my first 'friend' wedding this year and I loved every moment of it. From the bachelorette party to the banquet. I'm happy that Sam Bimbo ♥ found her true love 8 years ago and is now happily married. From 4 years ago in 2010 when I first met Sam until this day, I have never seen her more beautiful and happy than on her wedding day. Love exists. And it taught me that happiness can truly come from the heart despite my lack of ability to feel that kind of happiness. I wish all the couples I know all the happiness in the world, to enjoy each other's company and to forgive and tolerate the little things that annoy you. To hold on to each other and find a way to break through to them. To compromise and listen to what each one has to say. To never stop doing little things to surprise each other.
Mummy&Daddy, Claire&Terence, Amanda&Shaun, Jiawen&Bryan, Joyce&Simon, Sam&Nic, Yixiang&Agnes, Cheryl&Kenneth, Pearlyn&Keith, and of course, Cherryl&Joshua♥.

Joshua; We've been going strong for so long despite all the negativity and like I said before, we beat the odds together. Sometimes I feel like crying when I talk to you because I feel like our frequency is very very different. You also make me want to punch your tummy when you always forget the little things that annoy me. I can't say we were as mad and passionate about our relationship as we were 2 years ago but we are comfortable. And despite seeing you 99% of 2012, I still miss you even when I'm with you and when I'm not. You've taught me that love is about acceptance. Over time, I've accepted that your english sucks and you are possibly never going to slim down (TROLLLOLOL). 2012 has been a trying year for us and I'm glad we made it through endless days of army. I can't say that you are my true love and that I am going to marry you (Yes, I am damn realistic), but I can say that my love is not dying and that I wish to make many many more memories with you. ♥♥♥

Lastly: I am grateful for the things here and there that make up 2012

Other than memorable moments in 2012, there are bound to be events that make it a fruitful year. Much like a leaking pipe, without these events to hold the year together, everything would just fall apart in time. So I'm thankful for every meet up this year.

Jiawen/Sbitch; You have been extremely busy this year and so have I thus we didn't hang out as much and thus I didn't know which event above to slot you under HAHAHA. But I treasure every facial session, every supper session, every whatsapp chat that we have. You are like my longest closest friend I have and you also been the only constant in my life for as long as I can remember. No need for formalities, because you know that I'll be there for you whenever, wherever. And I know that you'll be there too. As we grow closer we no longer feel the need to hide that we are in a bad mood and entertain each other and that's what I love about you - No hard feelings. Everyday is a new day for us. Thank you for putting up with my nonsense and bitchy remarks about people who no longer matter. Thank you for always finding time to meet me, it makes me feel loved. HAHAHA. Aiya, not like I'm never going to talk to you again also. I love you la! ♥♥

Liangyu; I hate you. You are a guy who doesn't keep his word. HAHAHA. I'm thankful that I came to know you through Joshy because you are one of the rare ones that I feel comfortable around. Maybe because we are so alike - both lazy and poor. HAHAHA. I admire your efforts to study and I really think you are not stupid but like to act stupid. Next time when you make it big remember my name and how I cheered you on when you are studying and remember to treat me to bread. I want Croissant, not Gardenia bread k thanks. ♥


Yup, that kinda sums up this year for me. I omitted some events because I am either in denial or that I don't wish to recall unhappy events haha! I made a short list of resolutions to commemorate the mark of a new chapter of my life in 2013. But I'm not going to type them here because everytime I disclose a resolution to the public it doesn't ever work. (Like quitting mahjong) hahaha. I'll pen them down and come back to it next year end!

Loveeeeee♥