I am mighty proud of myself and my efforts. I made a promise to God which I am proud to say I have been keeping. okay just so this post makes sense I am briefly gonna tell you what i promised hahaha. (man, i am reallyyyyy not used to typing with a capital I)

well the big man up there was nice enough to answer my very very important prayer so because i was so grateful i promised that i would stop using vulgarities. like on a regular basis. because if you know me...... i can use them in every sentence possible. not proud of it but yeah. well they say venting your anger and using vulgarities once in awhile is good for your health. SERIOUSLY. RESEARCH SAYS SO. i read a few articles on it already hahaha. and i am ashamed to say i let slip out of my mouth about 2 vulgarities since i made that promise WHICH SERIOUSLY IS SUPER LITTLE COMPARED TO LAST TIME and im sure God knows im trying. i am literally conscious about what i say now.

im not really sure which way it goes. when i was younger i used to fast from something when i really needed God's help and it worked. but this way works too. man i don't know. anyway for someone who is addicted to using vulgarities in every sentence i just wanna say a little effort goes a long way. YOU PROBABLY THINK IM KIDDING RIGHT. like, who the hell would be addicted to using vulgarities. WELL, I AM. like i said, if you interact with me on a daily basis you would know.

its not like people actually noticed that i stopped actually. like when i asked josh the other day if he noticed something different about my speech he said, "you are speaking fluently?" .....GUYS. i mean come on, which day do i not speak fluently PFFT. haha kidding. but yea. oh this reminded me of some video i watched the other day.

it was about this woman who was teaching us ladies not to give guys open ended questions. like for example, i actually asked josh this question initially, "do you notice something different about me?" and after scrutinizing me like an object he said "you cut your fringe?" HAHAHAHA HE'S SO CUTE SOMETIMES I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY. normally after that response a lot of us would get irritated like, why is my bf so dumb why does he not understand what im saying. right? so the video actually said not to mislead our boyfriends because guys are generally not very observant and when you ask them an open ended question like that they would actually panic and think of anything pleasing to say. so if you want a compliment, ask him a direct question. if you went for a nose job, ask him if he can see your nose from the side. if you dyed your hair ask him if your hair is still black. simple things like that luh. it will save you both the trouble of guessing and the irritation and quarrels. bleh.

anyway i saw a list of things that dilys made on her blog (about herself) and i immediately thought of how much i don't like people to know about me. i know there are always different types of people, some like to share and some don't. i definitely belong to the group that doesnt. if i did make a list it would probably consist of things that are very generic and everyone already knows like... how i need to wash my hands very often or how i hate people who cough and sneeze w/o covering their mouths. i had this 'friend' who once told me that i probably always write the same things in a list like that because i am generally a very boring person and there's not much interesting about me. and then i set their house on fire. KIDDING. i guess it would be easier to say yes to that assumption than to explain that i like my privacy and if you wanted to know more about me you gotta show me you can be trusted. i guess its something to do with the fact that im a scorpio. YES I BELIEVE IN HOROSCOPES. i love my secrets. and besides, what's there left to find out if you already know everything about me? :)