certain events have led me to believe that people are selfish and incorrigible in all ways. even myself. sometimes we would rather lose something and regret our lives away than put down our pride and make peace. but some things can't be compromised with. dignity. self worth. if you've got them, keep them. always hold on to them. because when you dont, you'll end up like me. always thinking of why i did what i did. ive more regrets than if i had just let go and kept it all. being the bigger person actually makes me feel this small.

as i have lost myself, im unable to look up to the world like i used to. not many would understand, but it stems from something small. unable to clarify my thoughts and make a right move now because everything is a blur and its really tough to continue faking happiness as contrary to what they say, frowning uses less muscles than faking a smile. well, maybe just for me.

when i look into the night sky i count the stars but as i notice how miserable they are in numbers i fade into my bed again, all alone, getting what i deserved.