i think its bad enough that im not doing something that im interested in and this degree will follow me for life uh. then i'll spend my entire life doing something i hate uh. nevermind, will make the best out of it. sigh, spent my whole life being a nobody. when will i be a somebodyyyyyyyy. i try not to let failure affect me but i can't uh. im easily swayed and right now i really believe my failure is going to affect me. ugh, nevermind. i need to start hanging out with people with goals in their life who can inspire me. mm. im barely halfway through my life. i will get somewhere. yup i will.