you know how you are going crazy over someone and are mad worried when they are sick, but it's all behind their backs. then when they really do talk to you about their sickness you somehow react in a way that you didn't expect yourself to. like, super nonchalant. but the fact is that you are worried sick.......so now it seems to the person like you dont really care anymore but you are dying to tell them its not how you wanted to react its just natural to let them feel like you dont care anymore cos it would make things less complicated. and it just kills.

if thats the case then mission accomplished.

anyway you know sometimes you tell a friend how you feel about something in general,
eg. take what i blogged about just now for example. so you tell your friend like, "you know sometimes i rly wanna tell somebody that i do care and stuff but i end up doing the opposite thing. sucks right."

and the very next thing your friend asks is "who?" then they start guessing names.
wth, i never ask you to play Guess Who with me whytf you so kaypo man. i mean EVEN IF its somebody you know, i would have mentioned names if i felt comfortable doing so fucking morons.