yesterday i had the same sting in my heart i've been having for years. recently i've been having the same sting in my lower abdomen. it comes and suddenly the whole world stops - no breathing, no movement. 'don't touch me', i would mouth. makes me wonder how much more painful it is to be stabbed with a knife.

am i the only one who breathes consciously?

my pair of wrong sized shoes is taking its toll on my feet. i feel like the ancient women in China who bind their feet for god knows what reason. and every step i take is like stepping on.. i can't even find a description. ughhhhhhhhhhhh UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. other than that its fun (: i finally met adrien today!!!! :D we're working under the same company but not necessarily the same events (: makes me think about how much i want to go back to school. (((((: