i know my problems are trivial when compared to others but.. maybe it sucks more cos its so trivial YET i can't do anything about it. love how life throws shit in your face.

after all that's been said and done.

for life.

sorry. i hope you're doing better than i am despite all the shit thats happening to you.

you know how you start singing a sad song then the more you sing the more you realise your life is like that and your voice starts to shake a little then you sing some more and you end up crying?
.................

i was searching the net for more info on my operations chapter and i found a site that is IDENTICAL to my notes. omg SIM such rip offs. copy from net then say that plagiarism is an offense. offense my ass!!!

update/ oh wait. thats just the online version of my textbook. HAHAHAHAHAAHAAH

the only thing that comes to my mind everytime i pick up operations and totaly qlty management proj qst paper to do is "cheebye la".

notice how there are a TRUCKLOAD of FEMALE singers whose songs are about bastards and getting over them while IRONICALLY male singers tend to sing about everlasting love.

:< I'm like SO fucking sick of finance.

HELLO. I FINALLY HAVE TIME TO BLOG.

okay 1 down. stupid econs project. i hate those projects where you have to find an article and analyze it. walau eh, want to test us on application just give us a case study or something can anot!!!!? anyway. 5 more to go. 2 due next week. 3 the week after. and the dates are back to back. WALAU HIONG ANOT!?

haha i think i talk like an ah lian when im agitated.

anyway i didnt go to school again HAHAHA I SKIPPED ALL THE SATURDAYS SO FAR HAHAHAHA. wtf really no mood to wake up at bloody 8am on a saturday man. and im having lethal cramps. wtf how come as i get older i keep getting cramps. :<

anyway irony but you know what part of school i like the best? its the staying back to do projects :> cos everyone has such a good time together haha. yesterday we stayed to do finance then we got bored so we turned off the study room lights and played hide and seek. HAHAAHAHAHAH I KNOW.... anyway it was raining SO heavily yesterday was kinda scary. though i love it :> a tree fell in the middle of the road at tiong bahru!!! my first time seeing a tree in the middle of the road.

anyway.. people get extra angry when things are said about them and its not true. for me its the opposite. when things are said about me and they are not true i'll laugh about it. if they are true i will get really angry though i wont admit to it cos i dont like how vulnerable i feel. like how others can see right through me. and people just dont like people to tell them their flaws i guess.

so cheryl popped the question again for the 80483242 time since i knew her. HAHA.



and it just got me thinking of what i feel about that.

i honestly believe there isn't a reason for falling in love with someone. its not something like they treat you very nice then one fine day you finally give in or because they fit all the requirements of your 'list'. it just happens.

one day you feel okay around them and the next thing you know, your heart is pounding, your palms won't stop sweating and you have the urge to see them every day cos just seeing them would make your day. i believe this is the kind of love that will last but is also the most painful because if it didnt need a reason to start, there's no solid reason for it to stop. well, most painful cos if it is really unrequited love and you don't have a reason to stop loving them then... tough luck.

but it will last because they can't do anything to spoil it. i know that after loving someone for a long time you will start to notice their flaws but another thing i strongly believe in is that love surpasses all that. people always ask me why all the guys i like look so cui one (LOL) i also don't know. somehow i just over look that and see whats inside. at least i try to dig and see if theres anything good hahaha.

aiya random thought i wonder how many people in the world are having their honeymoon at this instance.

hello. i just had a close to 5 hours nap and it felt.. no where near good. cos i had to force myself to wake up and complete my stupid econs project. its not that i don't know what to write, i already have everything i want in mind. its just that before my nap,i spent what seemed like eternity drawing one graph on microsoft word. its SO ANNOYING to try to align everything and all. UGH.

not in a good mood at all. feel damn pissed off at everything. feel like i dont match up. feel like im trying damn hard for nothing.

ok this is in regards to no one at all. but how can some people be so relaxed about group projects? they owe it to the group to do a good job. how can they be so alright with getting shit grades. i often wonder how people can wait till the last minute to start and just do some sub standard work. its like people always say "oh, if they dont wanna do it then you dont do it either". but for me that will never work man. in a sense im being stupid yet smart. im stupid to even bother about putting in effort since its a die together thing but im not that stupid to not do anything and fail right. some people are just...

headache :(


hey furry baby i would love you more than anything in the world :)

sometimes...it's nice talking to strangers.

my job sucks. i can't quit. and i haven't started on a single project. i don't understand a single bit of finance and that is TRAGIC cos its not some theory memorisation crap you can cram right before the exam.
my life sucks. period.

HEHEHE THE STRAWBERRY SO CUTE.

it was shaped like a bunny :D:D:D
makes me smile. i dont know why. hahahahaa

"As the roses dip their heads a little further to the ground,
There's a season change &all the pinks and whites have turned to brown.
Will we make it through the Fall? We're gonna make it through this Fall,
Cos i don't wanna fall with you."
Roses&Butterflies - Making April

damn, this song is perfection. love the play on words.
Fall as in autumn.

its inevitable that in life, we will all have the need to use the F word at least once.
even angels do it.

HAHAHAHA OK READ THIS

"ok+ok=ok, good+ok=ok? and how about poor+ok?"
"If it is poor+ok, you may choose either "poor" or "ok", depending on the degree of the "poorness". If the poor is "very poor", then the overall would probably be towards "poor". Either "poor" or "ok" is fine if you state your reasons."

IS IT YOU READ ALREADY ALSO BLUR HAHAHAHA WTF WHERE GOT LECTURE NOTES LIKE THAT ONE. fucking biz finance hahahahahaha

anyway you are becoming one of those people who are like 'my boyfriend this my boyfriend that my boyfriend my boyfriend my boyfriend." sheesh.

i had a dream. :) a dream, not a nightmare. how often does that happen eh?
there was a guy. he had the nicest strongest shoulders :) we took polaroids. he took one of me when i was totally unaware and said he'd never seen anything more beautiful. i wanted to kiss his cheek for being so sweet but he cheekily turned and we kissed on the lips instead. we snuggled. it was perfect. everything i ever wanted.
its going to happen to me someday. i know it. :)

you know, i found an up side to being made used off/ only being sought out when people need something. it is the only time when people are EXTREMELY nice to you! i know that they are being extremely pretentious as well but heyhey its the only time you get to see a conniving bitch act like you are Jesus. so lets all go get made used off!

p.s. Tone: Sarcastic.


you see. the bad thing about unrequited love is that the one being loved gets the upper hand and can take their time to be a manipulative mindfucking bastard while the other party does his bidding cos they are soOoOooOoooOoooo in love and a wrong move might ruin their already non-existent chance of the bastard changing his mind.

and YETTTTT WE ALLL CONTINUE TO BE SLAVESSSSSS. CONGRATULATIONS ON EVOLVING, HUMANS.

last night i was listening to class 95's love songs and the topic was on 'Toxic Friends'. do you know that for whatever reason, every 7 years we change about half of our friends. and one of the reasons was toxic friends. here's 5 signs that your friend is 'toxic':

1) Your friend cant be genuinely happy for you (e.g jealousy and competitiveness)
2) Your friend is a constant source of stress (i.e always complaining and whining and negative.)
3) Your friend is overly critical and its not constructive criticism.
4) When your friend is always there on his/her terms. i.e She chooses the time date place and topic of conversation. or only looks for you when she wants to whine.
5) If your friend is plain crazy i.e copying you in whatever you do.

hmmmm. i think i am a toxic sister.

alone again on an afternoon with an overcast sky. what could come out of it besides thinking and over thinking? the more i try the more i literally feel my heart slowly being ripped apart and the worst part? there's no way to piece it back together.
no one to talk to, no where to run.
i need a distraction.