Being content.

So recently I've felt like people are being freaking nice to me and I don't deserve it at all. Why would anyone bother to be nice to someone who, for the better half of her life, only bring people around me down? But there are really such friends who exist and I can cry thinking of how nice people are to me. Not enough words to express how guilty I feel for being so negative all the time, even when people are constantly trying to make me feel better. 

I think it really all boils down to how well someone knows you. Like Lucien was being really really sweet last week. After expressing what a shitty day I had on my first day and all, he said he would ask me how work went till I finally tell him that it went alright. Even if he doesnt do it after that, the gesture really goes a long way. 

And Peiwen and G were being so nice. This is kinda personal so I wont type it out but they are lifesavers and they know me the best.

And even this morning, Joshy surprised me and sent me to Joyce's ROM. Even if he didn't mean to surprise me it made me really really happy cos afterall he's in the midst of exams and all. Thank you babypie for understanding so well what I need :) 

And how did i get so lucky to attend joyce's wedding and be her maid of honor, i will never know. And furthermore i stepped on her gown and it ripped HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAHAHAH I HOPE YOU STILL LOVE ME JOYCE. 

And recently i started talking to Nichy again. And the best thing was there was no awkwardness at all. Like, how did i get so lucky? He is really the only guy friend I love so much besides lucien. sigh. 

And my parents are so freaking nice too. ah i wont elaborate but HOW DID I GET SO LUCKY? 

I needa count my blessings everyday so that i wont end up emoing about stupid shit again. I LOVE ALL OF YOU!