yaaaaaaaay one more day till my agony is over. then i have two other projs to finish. hahahahahhahahaha i love school. i miss the old days where i would study at home and there would still be people on MSN. its so much lonelier nowadays. oh well. anw i just read jiawens blog about eating ants HAHAHAHA I AM SO DISGUSTED WITH YOU BITCH.

i rmb something that one of the entrepreneurs that i interviewed told me. everyone has good and bad things happening to them in life. but how you turn the bad things around and make yourself stronger because of them is what sets you apart from everyone. and it just hit a raw spot and for a moment i was like 'wow'. i mean im sure it has crossed all of your minds to look at the bright side. but no one ever does it. a few people always tell other people to do but never ever succeed are

1) cheer up
2) look on the bright side
3) forget it
4) go sleep, tmr when you wake up things will be better (who ever came up with this line ought to die)

anyway. i live in a world where people constantly look down on me and dont give a shit how i feel. if not for the law i think they wouldnt even care if im alive or dead. i also live in a very selfish world. but i didn't turn out like any of them. i refuse to. you wanna be selfish with me, i will treat you ten times better. when i die, please dont cry. i will come back as a ghost and slap you. i dont treat people nice because i wish they would feel guilty. but i actually feel good when i am nice to people who are selfish to me. i feel good that i am not at their level. as for people who dont give a shit how i feel and think just because i am the smallest fart in the hierarchy, im glad i didnt grow up to be like you. if i had to bow my head to everyone whose older than me i would have no self respect. im glad i don't expect people who are younger than me to bow down to me either. right means right wrong means wrong. you have emotions, others do too. you have opinions, so do i.

my biggest regret if i die is not being able to build the kind of r/s that i want with you. if i had an accident or something really major and big and happy happened to me i wouldn't share it with any of you. because all i would hear are echos of your judgment. i accept the fact that i would never be good enough for you. im so sick of it. im so sick of being trampled on. you caused me to grow up with screwed up emotions. you caused me to doubt everything that i do. my abilities and my achievements. but thank you. because i grew up stronger.

thats all.