okay i was so bored i decided to change my fuckin old blogskin. and yet, no progress in OTQM.

"All I need is the air i breathe and a place to rest my head."
OneRepublic

(scroll over the quote above!! there will be a cat haha so cute!)
kinda true isn't it? that's all we need to survive. relationships, drama - all extra. though some money and food would be nice.

can't wait for holidays to come. i can finally work and earn some money. that ought to get my parents off my back for abit. sometimes i feel like they are smothering me. sometimes is an understatement.

p.s i love you bff!
p.p.s i think i lost my knack for blogging ):

it's not funny anymore.

feeling extremely angsty right now cos I DON'T FUCKING KNOW HOW TO DO FUCKING OTQM.

people lie about the stupidest things.

just occurred to me that i haven't been staying up till the wee hours of the morning anymore. like right now i'm fucking tired but i have no choice cos i need to study and i wasted like half the week away already. can't wait for june hols. finally can stay up doing something i wanna do.

always makes me tear (:

i love waking up to a new day. cos you can just ignore everything that happened the day before. so here i am!! top form again!! :>

yet again i have to pretend like i am okay and it was all just a joke. i wonder how many similar incidents there were in my life. SHIT ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME.

SERIOUSLY, WHERE IS MY FUCKING ANGEL.

AWWWWW THE WORMS MAKE ME SMILE HAHAHAHA DID YOU SEE THE WAY IT CLAPPED ITS HANDS AT THE END HAHAHAHA. fucking cute!!

wah fuck, got to stop emoing over things that are of the past or things that have yet to come. focus on the present babyyyyy however dismal it may be.

if i tell you, its over.

hi there.
this is the n^th time I've alighted a bus to vomit. damn i really think something is seriously wrong with me. can't be motion sickness right. its so hell annoying luh i srsly thought i was gonna vomit on the bus and i was already thinking of my great escape. ugh. it was even more embarrassing to vomit by the road side. i could have bet that at least ONE person was thinking if i were pregnant. hurhurrr.

school's finally out. CA results were out today too. so hell upset with it. i got a C. HELLO A C GRADE HOMFG. though i did get A for the other 2 but a C. HOMFG. fuck otqm upside down man. it's such a fucked up guys topic that girls just don't get. sigh.

taught ffffff MA after school. amazed i could still remember the core topics. hope he does well! on the very bright side, awkward silences are finally all gone and we are completely back to normal friends. i've waited for this day to come since forever. dark times DO pass. :>

attended my cousin's wedding last night. it was really one of those occasions where you get caught in the moment and you fast forward to the future to see how your own wedding would be like, who you would invite, where it would be and stuff. spectacular. how i yearn to find a romantic husband :>

alrighty. later.

the sunrise gives me hope, the sunset gives me memories.

past few days have been occupied with WOW (world of warcraft, yes i know people play that when they are in secondary school), worrying about exams but not taking action, and bitch public transport. sigh, how i loathe public transport. yes next week will be intensive studying week. because I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. fuckkkk. super worried for this exam. okay. gotta run, playing wow HAHHAHAHAHAHA BYE

nothing out of the norm has been occurring in my life. just catching up with terry, crying over spilt milk and feeling really worried for my exams. no sign of things taking a good turn and high expectations met with higher disappointments again. why oh why?

“Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It’s for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It’s for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don’t see it nearly enough.”

(via dirtylittlestylewhore)

moving on to a new chapter in life.
but something's keeping me from smiling.
i bet you are thinking whats new.
well then.

"no news is good news" can be read in the optimist's way such that receiving no news about someone, is considered good news. or the pessimist's way such that no news received is ever good news. hm.

how does one not love such cute mice?

in order: adrien, sam and fandy. HAHAHAHA.

here's fandy. its the one that gave birth hahahahhahahaha.
haha, adrien psyched me into trying to put them on my hand. wasn't hard actually. and their bites are TOTALLY harmless. damn cute. (:

finally handed in the last project. need to start studying for exams already. THREE SIGHS FOR EXAMS. HIPHIP SIGH.. hiphip...... somehow i feel guilty just taking a break now even though projs just ended. hmmm its a sign that i know shit about whats going on.

i feel heavy hearted, yes again. but no idea why. anyway had a good phone chat with nphua last night. like after 8293820328 years. omg his spoken english is so fluent now. jealous. hmm. he gave me some things to think about.

ya anyway bye. think i'll go watch tv.

i miss being pampered.

fucking annoyed with everyone.

fuck it :(

emotions wise, i'm dead in every aspect.
friendships, love: nothing can save it.

HAHAHA I FED MY MICE RICE AND THEY SNATCHED IT FROM MY HAND OMG DAMN CUTE.

oh nooooooo. aiyo, i must remember that my heart is not for sale.
noooooooooooooo. i need to do something drastic to distract myself. another haircut? feel like cutting it short. not boy short, just short. sheesh what other drastic things can you do to yourself to distract yourself from your thoughts. drugs, drinking, HAHA im kidding. but seriously.......

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. stop thinking stop thinking!! oh anyway yesterday i flagged a police car cos i thought it was a taxi hahahahahahahahahahahahah its lights werent on so from far i could only see the white part in the middle. when it got closer i saw the words POLICE on the car and they were alrdy going to stop cos they put the blinker lights then i just waved them off. fucking paiseh!!

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
my heart is not for sale.........................

jul's 21st at onedegree15 was awesome!

rest of the pics w all of em. upload when i get em!

hey.
one of my mice gave birth today when i wasn't home. and it was too late when i got home because she had killed all 4 of them because she felt threatened with other mice in the box. i feel so guilty for not noticing that she was pregnant although i did dote on her the most among all of them. it was heart wrenching just looking at all four dead babies in my hand; i felt like a murderer. sigh. a moment of silence please.


finally handed in econs and finance individual project. though added together, they weren't as tedious as OTQM but i still haven't slept properly in ages. i feel like my heart has been left somewhere but i dont know where and i can't find it.. once again, im alone.

i was on the bus to school yesterday when i saw an advertisement for Baygon's new CITRUS insect spray. somehow the impression it gives me is this:

CITRUS just doesnt seem to go with something that should be KILLING that ugly thing.
my idea of a strong Baygon is this:

in my opinion they should make the spray as foul smelling as possible hahaha!! i know i know.. to our detriment though.

anyway i'm so upset with myself. i fell asleep while doing my finance project and i didn't make it to school. sigh. i hate this sem luh its just a freaking bad sem. ):

人与人之间的关系, 真的太复杂了.. 我不希望我们的犹豫会像日落一样代表一切的结束.

somehow all my problems always end with me throwing a fit and going "i don't give a damn anymore". concession? wouldn't say so. more like avoidance. sometimes i like to think that if i say "i dont give a damn" it would really all go away and i can REALLY not give a damn. actually i would prefer if nothing was happening in my life so that i would be complaining about something unreal rather than something that has consequences and stuff.

i am so detestable. AND NEEDY. cfm gonna die alone.

i think i am a raving psychotic drama bitch when it comes to r/s.
i am so going to die alone.

adrien is by far the nicest friend i ever had :>