next time i get my pay, im going to buy myself a pair of sports shoes. and start running and eating vegetables. 

hello! while waiting for my turn to use the toilet i shall post something short and sweet.

i have been surrounded with so much negativities lately that i feel the need to cheer myself up with the positives.

my gerbils are okay! recently i noticed a small red patch at its tummy and when i went to read up on it, its actually their scent gland. and males often use it more to mark their territory. so i guess my poor boy had an inflamed scent gland. and its usually not harmful until it starts to itch and the gerbil scratches it.

so one day i came home and my white gerbil had blood all over its tummy and obviously i freaked out. i took it to the vet immediately. it was like 1am hahaha thanks joshy for caring about your children. it costs me a bomb, about $400 plus. hahaha ya so for people not willing to spend on your pets please dont get one.

anyways the vet gave me something to clean my gerbil's wound and also some antibiotics to be eaten. poor baby boy :( its getting better i think! though the vet said they could not rule out cancer. hmm taking it back to the vet next thursday for a follow up. cross fingers! i know my baby boy is strong! :)

on a lighter note,
its chinese new year soon! in less than 2 days. whoohoo! money money money!

Dear stranger, 

I don't know how you went or if you wanted to go but your family was miserable and I know that you will be watching over them. Rest in peace.

I think I'll be consumed by my own dissatisfaction sooner or later. Probably sooner. It's like no matter what job I hold, what anyone does for me, what I buy/do to pamper myself, it only lasts for a split second and then I'm back to being miserable. I really do have a problem. 

you're right. i do hv pent up anger and i do hate you right now. 

She can only be there for you as much as youre there for her