hello bitches.
so lets start with updates from tuesday. yes tuesday to me means after i have slept and woken up not my previous blog post tuesday. didnt go to work cos i was coughing so madly my head felt like it was going to explode and i was running a slight fever. yes i know. i seem to fall sick so often these days when i used to be so resistant to every damn germ on this planet. fuck. and usually i'd still go to school and all if i were slightly sick but i seriously can't face customers like this and i cannot stand it when they look at me and cover their noses when i cough. like fuck you, i am trying to do you a favor by still bothering to serve you. so yes, on top of being sick, i was in a foul mood. (YES I KNOW, WHATS NEW.) pfft well fuck off if you can't deal with it.
so i stayed home till evening and joshy surprised me by telling me he could come out. so we went to eat bakerzin. their menu has changed drastically from the last time i went to eat with geok. dinner is really really limited now. as you can see below we both had pasta which is rare. cos one of us would usually order something different just so we could try something new.
so thats my prawn aglio olio, ice chocolate, ice mocha, mushroom soup and carbonara. they have free flow of bread too but they're not working the concept as well as cafe cartel used to. anyway overall, super overpriced for sub quality food. probably never going back there again.
went for a spin with joshy after. since we generally hit all the expressways in Singapore before we decided to hit the last one which we haven't hit which was ECP AYE. went all the way to the end where all the cool industrial areas were. i know its odd to call them cool but i am seriously fascinated with warehouses and their structures. not the ones at Ubi where they are all super clumped together and all. but the real industrial areas around Benoi road. yes okay, really weird thing to be fascinated about. we uncovered another hidden landed housing estate similar to the one near King Albert Park. this one was at Jalan Hang Jebat. its actually a malay general. yes ok i went to look it up cos i was really interested. so the houses actually looked like the one below.
which i think is really really cool luh even though we always discover such places at night and although all the lights in all the houses are always on but i have yet to spot any movement in the houses. i did see someone playing a computer that day though, so i felt more at ease. anyway another that makes it really cool is that its really hidden and josh and i just happened to discover it by accident cos its hidden by the expressway. we fled halfway though, cos we reached the 'end' of the road and there was another road ahead but it was completely dark and all the words were in malay so..... haha. fled.
i love taking long rides with josh. firstly he doesnt complain about his fuel though i know he should. well, thats why we dont do it often anyway. and we just turn the radio up and drive carefree with the wind in our hair. its the most awesome feeling ever.
lets skip wednesday. thursday came and i went to work for my PM shift for like 2.5 hours before the shop closed for a dinner treat from our boss Jessie. went to Dempsey's Contemporary Melting Pot &Bar. im not gonna lie. it was fucking awkward to begin with cos the seating arrangement was screwed. so it wasn't as enjoyable as it should have been. plus i hate social events as EVERYONE can tell. making small talk kills me. literally. well even though the company was meh, the food was awesome so thank you jessie for the wonderful treat. i have pictures but i obviously have not uploaded them cos, gee look at the time. haha.
met geok after that for l4d. felt so good to get out of formal wear. i dont really actually know what my dress code should be like. im like 22 this year and i think i looked appropriate but since everyone in the shop is so.. well. maybe i did look overdressed. meh. anyway l4d was a joke as usual. its always good to play with someone whose not constantly in competition with like everyone including themselves. total hate. i hate people who just have to be better at everything. well ok not everything like life and stuff but stupid things like l4d -_- gee. oh ok you win, you killed the most monsters whoohoo. so geok and i are the best combi cos we are constantly laughing our asses off.
decided to walk home after that (to make up for all the sessions we were supposed to go running but failed heh). walked from katong to eunos MRT where we decided to take a 5 min break and within this 5 mins the heavens decided to pour. i think i should be happy that it decided to pour when we were under shelter and not when we were walking. yup. so cabbed home and here i am.
photo i took for joshy when i reached home. i hate how white i look. pfft yes you can't see it here because i already added effects but i am super white even though i put like tons of blusher. waddup?
oh yes. last but not least, check out my phone.
i really dont know what the fuck happened. hahahaha. old already.
feel really..used/expendable/disposable/etc. maybe i am not worth it afterall. maybe i am not as good as i think i am. i have always believed my expectations of others will always be failed, but i never expected that i would not be able to meet the expectations of myself. i know this whole thing is detrimental but maybe thats what its like to be human: we do (and enjoy) whats detrimental and we shun whats good. like smoking, staying up all night, etc as compared to eating right, etc. ugh you know what i mean. is it worth putting my pride down for if it means nothing to someone else? :/
i guess my answer to that will always be yes cos as long as it matters to me i will keep fighting. this is how you know when i have really given up.
so lets start with updates from tuesday. yes tuesday to me means after i have slept and woken up not my previous blog post tuesday. didnt go to work cos i was coughing so madly my head felt like it was going to explode and i was running a slight fever. yes i know. i seem to fall sick so often these days when i used to be so resistant to every damn germ on this planet. fuck. and usually i'd still go to school and all if i were slightly sick but i seriously can't face customers like this and i cannot stand it when they look at me and cover their noses when i cough. like fuck you, i am trying to do you a favor by still bothering to serve you. so yes, on top of being sick, i was in a foul mood. (YES I KNOW, WHATS NEW.) pfft well fuck off if you can't deal with it.
so i stayed home till evening and joshy surprised me by telling me he could come out. so we went to eat bakerzin. their menu has changed drastically from the last time i went to eat with geok. dinner is really really limited now. as you can see below we both had pasta which is rare. cos one of us would usually order something different just so we could try something new.
so thats my prawn aglio olio, ice chocolate, ice mocha, mushroom soup and carbonara. they have free flow of bread too but they're not working the concept as well as cafe cartel used to. anyway overall, super overpriced for sub quality food. probably never going back there again.
went for a spin with joshy after. since we generally hit all the expressways in Singapore before we decided to hit the last one which we haven't hit which was ECP AYE. went all the way to the end where all the cool industrial areas were. i know its odd to call them cool but i am seriously fascinated with warehouses and their structures. not the ones at Ubi where they are all super clumped together and all. but the real industrial areas around Benoi road. yes okay, really weird thing to be fascinated about. we uncovered another hidden landed housing estate similar to the one near King Albert Park. this one was at Jalan Hang Jebat. its actually a malay general. yes ok i went to look it up cos i was really interested. so the houses actually looked like the one below.
which i think is really really cool luh even though we always discover such places at night and although all the lights in all the houses are always on but i have yet to spot any movement in the houses. i did see someone playing a computer that day though, so i felt more at ease. anyway another that makes it really cool is that its really hidden and josh and i just happened to discover it by accident cos its hidden by the expressway. we fled halfway though, cos we reached the 'end' of the road and there was another road ahead but it was completely dark and all the words were in malay so..... haha. fled.
i love taking long rides with josh. firstly he doesnt complain about his fuel though i know he should. well, thats why we dont do it often anyway. and we just turn the radio up and drive carefree with the wind in our hair. its the most awesome feeling ever.
lets skip wednesday. thursday came and i went to work for my PM shift for like 2.5 hours before the shop closed for a dinner treat from our boss Jessie. went to Dempsey's Contemporary Melting Pot &Bar. im not gonna lie. it was fucking awkward to begin with cos the seating arrangement was screwed. so it wasn't as enjoyable as it should have been. plus i hate social events as EVERYONE can tell. making small talk kills me. literally. well even though the company was meh, the food was awesome so thank you jessie for the wonderful treat. i have pictures but i obviously have not uploaded them cos, gee look at the time. haha.
met geok after that for l4d. felt so good to get out of formal wear. i dont really actually know what my dress code should be like. im like 22 this year and i think i looked appropriate but since everyone in the shop is so.. well. maybe i did look overdressed. meh. anyway l4d was a joke as usual. its always good to play with someone whose not constantly in competition with like everyone including themselves. total hate. i hate people who just have to be better at everything. well ok not everything like life and stuff but stupid things like l4d -_- gee. oh ok you win, you killed the most monsters whoohoo. so geok and i are the best combi cos we are constantly laughing our asses off.
decided to walk home after that (to make up for all the sessions we were supposed to go running but failed heh). walked from katong to eunos MRT where we decided to take a 5 min break and within this 5 mins the heavens decided to pour. i think i should be happy that it decided to pour when we were under shelter and not when we were walking. yup. so cabbed home and here i am.
photo i took for joshy when i reached home. i hate how white i look. pfft yes you can't see it here because i already added effects but i am super white even though i put like tons of blusher. waddup?
oh yes. last but not least, check out my phone.
i really dont know what the fuck happened. hahahaha. old already.
feel really..used/expendable/disposable/etc. maybe i am not worth it afterall. maybe i am not as good as i think i am. i have always believed my expectations of others will always be failed, but i never expected that i would not be able to meet the expectations of myself. i know this whole thing is detrimental but maybe thats what its like to be human: we do (and enjoy) whats detrimental and we shun whats good. like smoking, staying up all night, etc as compared to eating right, etc. ugh you know what i mean. is it worth putting my pride down for if it means nothing to someone else? :/
i guess my answer to that will always be yes cos as long as it matters to me i will keep fighting. this is how you know when i have really given up.
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