Okay i think i should finally update my blog hahahaha.

Okay lets see. This thursday is my last day at Starhub! Then school is starting next week. What an awful new year..
Anyway last week was cool hahaha. We went to visit the so called haunted places hahaha. Like pasir ris red house (totally nothing btw its just a house that looks pretty dilapidated) and old changi general hospital hahaha. Then we went to lim chu kang cemetry and all. Ya whack job hahaha.

Yup somehow i never ever get enough sleep nwadays but i guess it'll gt better when school starts.. No more late nights out w my fav guy and my bitch. i hate how time passes so quickly and how fun and young days just fly too. I am feeling alot more open about my friends being attached though. Hahaha i feel happy actually. Its good to have sth to look forward to every weekend :)

Okay if you didnt get any of that i dont blame you. Its just rly scattered thoughts. Heh bye!

i have always thought that words of endearment go well with sarcasm.

did you know that mulan and Pocahontas are disney princesses? HAHAHA ya you can see i typed out mulan's name with a small "m" and i obviously copy pasted pocahontas's name because i dont know how to spell it. haaaaah.

anyway

WATCH IT.

http://www.razor.tv/site/servlet/segment/main/news/57592.html

you lose at least 2 close friends when you get attached okay.
FEEL ME. FEEL ME.

omgggg okay hiiiiiii!

fucking long since i blogged properly, i kinda forgot how to! anyway! met up w SIM friends (sam, fandy, geok, yixiang). dearest adrien could not make it because he was having chinese lessons.

went marche to eat.



omg pork knuckles like fucking good!




geokkk


fandy


yixiang


sam hahaahah okay her eyes are closed but she's still so pretty!






heeeeeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeee.






okay then i took paid leave on that day cos my sister was flying off for holiday. so went to eat with the famzzz.


AWWW AINT SHE PRETTY.






airport.



okay let me see. past few days since wednesday, work and work and work. my life fucking boring la now. SIM orientation tmr. dont even feel like going hahaha. hate to go to a new school having to start all over again. pretty happy how my life in SIM went though (:

wahhhh christmas coming already. have to get some big ass present for my sister to make up for me working on her birthday -_- haha i remember when cher and i would plan what to get for our parents and stuff and make our silly new years resolutions together. everyyy single year.

oh anyway i know damn fucking long ago but i just came across the photo in my camera hahaha i said before, chuuuu and geok bought me flowers and cake for my birthday hahaha. i love lilies! they bought me a whole bouquet lmao.




anyway it was the last day i had long hair haha. the very last picture of me with long hair. ok i kinda put it up cos i wanted to see how i would look like in short hair but i like the picture anyway haha.


tadah. this is me at night.


ok i look like i haven't slept in days. ALMOST THERE OKAY!??!

woke up just now to meet chu for lunch before he booked in. love popeyes! okay i need to sleep now. i need to wake up at 12pm tmr. ya my body clock damn screwed up. hahaha okay bye!

geok and i have hit a new low at work.

my eyes have reduced to a size not comparable to the sides of a coin. geok is staring listlessly at her computer screen and has no reaction whatsoever to whatever that has loaded on her screen. its a pity halloween has passed because we would win first prize if we hit the clubs after this.

anyway, meeting samzzz fandy yx adrien and geok tmr for awesome lunch. excited! i love all of them so much hehehe.

i miss singing k and playing pool and l4d and just hanging out after work. with you. now its like, we're hi bye friends though we've been through more than that. we reached the end then went back to being hi bye friends. totally opposite from everyone else. nope. i dont miss you in that kinda way. i just miss the times you were free and steady to do anything. feel like im losing you even as a friend. you're so tied down now. i know you dont feel that way. just a third party point of view. but i guess you're happy. thats what matters right? that everyone else is happy.

mega emo night. oh well. been there done that. just have to wait till i think about stuff again.

song of the night - Robbie Williams, Better Man

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

i can't believe mcdonalds delivered diet coke to me. DIET COKE. WHO THE HELL DRINKS DIET COKE! IT DOESNT EVEN HAVE GAS IN IT. AND IT TASTES LIKE SHIT. super spoil mood. order large somemore. ta maaaaaa de.

omg super disgusting.

went to work alone today. initially all sorts of excuses came to my mind to skip work because number one, i am working alone today. number two, i was so tired i cldnt move a muscle. i sucked it up and went anyway. buvan bought famous amos for me! hahaha cheered me up. $1.40 leh. im so kiam siap i only buy $0.50 twisties hahaha.

i've honestly seen the stupidest of singaporeans from my time in starhub. their requests are honestly so stupid sometimes i dont even know how to reply them. and some of them have email history way back to 2004 its like they spend their whole lives stalking their starhub bills and preying on mistakes.

oh well, knew im not cut out for customer service. i seriously cant take stupid yet demanding people. so i threw a few sarcastic and curt replies to customers so far. hope they dont ever come back to me. hahahahaha

omg my acceptance letter finally came -_- my mum has been bugging me about it and i would just brush it off but actually inside im like ........

absence can do 2 things to love - make it stronger or allow you to pretend it never existed.
somehow im swaying towards 'pretend it never existed'.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

“Over the years, she influenced my writing style. Now I write in short sentences, in the active voice. We gradually influenced each other’s ways and habits as we adjusted and accommodated each other.

We knew that we could not stay starry-eyed lovers all our lives; that life was an on-going challenge with new problems to resolve and manage.

…

Her last wish she shared with me was to enjoin our children to have our ashes placed together, as we were in life.

The last two years of her life were the most difficult. She was bed-ridden after small successive strokes; she could not speak but she was still cognisant.

Every night she would wait for me to sit by her to tell her of my day’s activities and to read her favourite poems.

Then she would sleep.

I have precious memories of our 63 years together. Without her, I would be a different man, with a different life. She devoted herself to me and our children. She was always there when I needed her. She has lived a life full of warmth and meaning.

I should find solace at her 89 years of her life well lived. But at this moment of the final parting, my heart is heavy with sadness.”

mm lee’s eulogy

taken from my sisters blog. has a nice touch to it huh.


HAHAHAAHA my mice so cute ah.





ah oh well i really could use a furry little thing running around my hand right now.

anyway i think....hmm. hahahahahahaaha ;)

happy days? really happy days? hahahaha maybe. nowadays im so i-dont-give-a-shit that i find it impossible to be emo about anything HAHAHA i mean judging from what he did to me i would have given him even worse treatment than this alrdy HAHAHA nvm i dont care.

Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued, is always beyond our grasp, but which if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you.

- Nathaniel Hawthorne

omggggg i haven't been in this space for ages. so unlike me.

oh well, have been out and about but now its back to home again cos joshua finally went into army ): AWWWWZZZ. i dare say i've been seeing him 7 days a week for about a month? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. im so having withdrawal symptoms now. ): hahahaha everyday after work its like pool, eat, l4d, eat, sometimes go barrage, mahjong, ecp, bowling once we even went cycling HAHAHA crazy.

aiya. oh thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday haha. i know abit late. aww josh and geok surprised me at barrage w a cake and flowers. HAHAHA I LOVE FLOWERS. then i spent my bday w joe jj and josh. ya cos everyone else had school and work. i know, very sad. nevermind heheeee.

ahhhhhhhh met watson for dinner the other night. omggggg i love motorbikes. sigh. okay motorbikes are my favourite vehicles!

aiyar actually alot of shit happened in the past few days and the past 1.5mths at work. nevermind! still awesome!! and no i did not cut my hair because i had some emotional trauma or sth hahaha.


my esteem is so low seriously hahahaha. when someone makes me feel special i will always think that person does it to every other girl. HAHAHA awwwwww ): yup okay im actually quite sad right now HAHAHAHAH CAN YOU TELL. okay im kidding. HAHAHA

am i? HAHAHAHAHAA OKAY BYEEEEEE

hi guys :D

i have been enjoying myself so much for the past few weeks i really hope nothing changes. done some things i've regretted but dont feel really sad about it. trying to be optimistic cos i kinda hate it when my friend starts to emo when im with her/him so i can only imagine what its like being with me. haha.

choices, people. i guess in life you gotta make em fast make em right. know your boundaries. once you start making wrong choices you kinda notice life really does not rewind. yup. can't be so gullible as to believe everyone out there is good at heart.

yup thats all i have to say today.
regrets, its a matter of who keeps moving on.

these few days have been awesome. many things happened, many new experiences but many things to keep my mind off them too. overall, im lucky to have awesome friends.

it's not so bad the second time around. especially when you're not over the death of your first mouse. the second blow just comes like the remaining breeze after a hurricane. i don't foresee my last mouse living much longer cos it will probably die of loneliness.

i think my life is that of a straw. really hollow. sometimes some excitement flows through, but mostly just hollow. the worst part is the excitement falls out either way.


when you're single for too long you get bored and you feel like getting into the game again. the game is important. find the wrong players and you would rather stay out of it. sometimes when you think you've found the suitable player they do something that turns you off and once again you find yourself outside the court, watching from the sidelines. you would rather sit alone along court than to join in with the low class players. that's what i end up doing most of the time.


life to me isn't about the physical fun, its about what really goes on in your head. what you're thinking when youre not talking, that's who you are, thats life.

let's just say i don't like to talk much about my life.

Yesterday was by far the most fucked up day of the month.

First i came home and saw the limp body of Fandy my mouse. It was the fattest mouse of all but when it was dead, fuck was it small. kinda like shriveled up. fucking sad ah i cry until 3pm then i sleep. i was home at like 9am. even then i found it hard to close my swollen eyes. ya thanks to everyone who thought it was a joke okay, thanks.

Secondly, i went to work with a fucked up mood and fucked up mood + bitch in me = trouble. made wilson pissed cos i slammed his precious car door like super hard. ya i like to do fucked up things la ok. in my nature can't help it. just that i really dont expect people to get mad at me. like i said before, most of my friends rly just forgive me for everything i do. thank god.

after that was just damn fucked up all the way la dont even wanna think about it. i used to think i can control when i want to act like a bitch and when i dont wanna. like i used to be this super nice push over when i was younger. dont knw. maybe got tired of it. maybe now it has become, me.

wah so fucked up. be nice cherryl. BE NICE. BE NICE. BE NICE. people only like nice sweet people. tch.

okays. new day new start.

good mourning.

): super sad.
giving up forever and ever amen.

hahaha okay hello. i realised i haven't really done a proper update since i don't know when.

okay as you all know i am working 7pm to 4.30am at starhub hahaha. please feel free to drop an email to customercare@starhub.com hahaha. but i won't guarantee i will be the one receiving your email la. hahaha. anyway its become a habit to eat after work and so i can already picture myself 3 months down the road when i quit my job, i will look like a real pig. FUCK SIA, HOW TO LOSE WEIGHT BUT DON'T PUT IN EFFORT? HAHA. if someone can invent such a thing i will invest my life on it. lmao

HAHAHHA SIDETRACK ABIT. MY MOTHER DAMN FUNNY LA. she texted me

"change your bedsheet and don't throw clothes on the floor"

then i sian right, i reply her

"Your message failed to be delivered. Please try again"

HAHAHHHAAHAHAHA THEN SHE REALLY SEND AGAIN LA. DAMN CUTE HAHAHAH.

ANYWAY i swear i am going to be less vulgar from today hahahahha. my reputation like damn bad hahaha. anyway i think 7 out of ten of my guy friends thinks my sister is hot. terence, you got competition. haha. sometimes i really think i was picked up from somewhere hahaha.


anyway i think dating is like a job application in some sense. when you look at someone you think you can progress with you will look at their qualifications, what future they have, finance and a good photograph helps. hahaha.

okay i'm not tired so i don't know what to do now hahaha. ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADRIEN I LOVE YOU!!

my mice are fucking cute la. they are all growing up fine hahaha. i tell you when they stretch and yawn your heart just MELTS.

THE LATEST HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER EPISODE IS SO TOUCHING.
heehee barney stintson is so adorable.

working 7-4.30am is fine, just gets pretty frustrating when i don't know how to handle a case. then again, its first day on floor so i guess its fine. i hope it gets better, gotta try and rmb more stuff.

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. mood hasn't been up there.

I guess it's okay to cry once in awhile.